rocks!


I saw the mtv this afternoon, got attracted to it. haha.


Oh, this is best!

Hurt
Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
'Cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong?
Would you help understand?
Are you looking down upon me?
Are you proud of who I am?

There's nothing I wouldn't do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away
Ooh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself..
By hurting you

yeah, 78. =)

Yes, I feel better now.

Special thanks to Melissa, Jia Ying and .. Joycelin. haha.

I do agree with boys, - Girls are difficult to understand.

yeah, alright.

Saw this note in my cupboard and it somewhat made me smile alot more,

" Dear Rui Shan, This is just a little something which I hope will mean something to you. The words on the bookmark are quite meaningful and as you grow into a young adult,, you will find that thing are not as simple as they were when you were just a child and there might be times when things get really tough and you feel lost. Don't lose hope and know that you are never alone. There will always be people who care about you and willing to help you in your time of need. All you have to do is ask.
Well, it has been a wonderful one and a half years knowing you all and I must say that I am proud to have taught you. Take care of yourself and I wish you all the best.

Mrs Eugenie Yeoh
KCPPS
P6 Courage 2004 "

Yeah, Mrs Yeoh. Indeed, it's been a pleasure being your student. well, havent chatted with you for really long. That note is really something man.

Alright. Finally, the day has arrived. =) It may feel really sour, but it's okay. I must stand up on my feet. " I get knocked down, but I get up again, and you're never gonna keep me down. "

jia you jia you jia you!
jia you to everyone! =D

yes it's always me..
me me me.

Hanged out with OC, carin, mark and hammie today.
Fooling arnd everywhere we go, esp IMM.
Okay, we went to Jurong Centre, and realised there isnt anything to do,
so we walked to IMM.
Lols, hammie's fantastic idea. XD I LOVE OVERHEAD BRIDGES. lololololol.

Alright, this is what we did in Giant. ((:

okay, thats dumb. more pictures! haha.
The guys. Honestly, they look quite cool in there. Lols.

Those just look like safety googles or sth. Dnt, anyone?This is damn funny, some geek sunglasses they found. Both of them look like aliens. =pThen we walked further up, saw some clothes. Then they decided to try it on. =.=

Ham: " Eh, is this for guys? "

Mark: " Yeahhhhh....... no. -.- "

Ham: " I dunno, "

Gosh. *bangs head on wall*

Alright.. That pink tie is cute.*hammie grabs blazer. Eager to try it*Behind reads, "Gents' FASHION" So much for being fashionable~ haaaa!

- "yeah, do I look good?"Oh man, I have no idea why they are doing that. Lols.Carin and I!Poor winnie, it got stuck there.

DOGSSSSSSSS! =D

Right. After all the "collection" of snacks and all.. we had a race.

A race to put everything back, see who's the fastest. Lols.

So hammie and carin paired, Mark and I paired, Kenneth and Ben paired.

Winnnnerrrrrrrrrrrrr is..

Me and mark! haha. Apparently everyone just grabbed everything and ran amok. It was damn funny, XD

After that, we slacked arnd IMM, and just look at this.

So close! They were alr halfway through, but the stupid escalator stopped. =.= then hammie went, "ahhhh~~~" *drops* Lols. Everyone else arnd were like staring at them,

oh yea, cheers to OC! =D

Cousins outing today!
Chatted alot with shi zheng, heh. He told me alot about band... hmmm. He's one logical and mature guy. Appears to be so... clumsy and retarded, but he's really brainy. haha. =D
shi yuan is crappy as usual, he thought me the "xi shua shua, xi shua shua" dance, it's damn lame, but funny enough to make everyone laugh like crazy. =p
shipeng, oh gosh. you should see how he messes the table when he eats. Champion sia. Lols.
Okay, i'll let the pics do the talking. =)

Sistaaaas!Toyrus!

Retarded old woman.LUNCH! XD

The champions. Never fail to mess the whole table.

Starbucks! =D I said funny faces, not retarded.The cutest couple!
On our way to.... STEAMBOAT!
And guess what, I SAW THAT SAME OLD MAN I QUARRELLED WITH. =.= he didnt recognise me, so it's alright. heh.

Marky joined us too! haha. I FINALLY GOT TO SEE HIM! Me, my sister and arthur waited for him at the mrt, whereas the rest of my cousins went to book a place first. =)

Look at the pole dance, gosh. Yes, brothers in action. Lols.

Alright. Notice arthur: " He felt something stuck in his mouth. "

So he tried digging it out..TADA! =) HIS PROTRUDING GUMS AND AWFUL TEETH.

The war with prawns. Oh man, it could have killed me. The live prawns, AGAIN! This batch of prawns were freaking active, they kept jumping outta the box, made me go nuts. For goodness sake I was sitting just beside the prawns. When you're happily eating, suddenly one prawn flies out, and pass your sight. Pity them, desperately wanting to escape from the horrible death - boiling/ frying alive.

So mark and shi zheng went on a 'catching prawn' mission.

*prawn flies out*

*2 boys starts catching prawn*

*next prawn flies out*

*runs to catch the other prawn*

and yes, pig liver is digusting. =/

So cute, the way shi peng talk to mark. Lols, and mark thought he was FOUR years old when he's like primary 3 next year, which makes him... 9.

Went to the arcade to play awhile.. then headed home alr. =)Oh, I missed my boy so much! =p

Right, ever seen this guy at vivo?

Nope? THEN YOU GOTTA WATCH THIS!


And there was one moment he froze there really long, and everyone started to go near him, tickle him, shake his hand. Then he suddenly yell. and it made the crowd scream soooo loudly and high pitched. That was damn funny la, everyone else laughed, and those who got shocked ran away with their faces all so red. Lols!

Enjoyed today alot! esp when I get to see marky! =D

ImsofuckinparanoidrightnowIdunnowhattodoNeitherdoIknowwhyimtypinglikethat
ItfeelslikeIamsinkingsodeepandeveryoneisjuststandingarndmeseeingmesinkdeeperanddeeper

"Actually our brass section quite good ma, but if you add ruishan in, it'll be a different story alr. "

AndIjustrealisethatIwasntimptatalltotheband
SinceIcreatedmuch-noise-andinconvenienceforyourconducting
darnyou

youbunchofmucuscoveredhairymoronicidiots

(okay,IdunnowhoamIscolding,sodontworry)

Imjustmessedup

heh

ohmy

I'vespentthesefewdayswaitingandwaiting

ahit'sokay

anwwespent2/3ofourliveswaiting

sowhynotwaitmore


Someonetellmeeverythingsokay

Beauty, CREATED.



Damn cool la.

Saw my number of posts in blogger,
440.
Lols, then this will be the 441th. =)

My sister dyed her hair copper red. When I take a second look at her, I dont believe she's MY SISTER. Right now, she's guai-kia-no-more! =D haha, liberation. I can see how relaxed she is now, and I like her this way! No more bad moods, black faces, bad temper, tantrum. This can clearly show what has A levels done to her.

Im having many many many thoughts recently..

1. Pyu may drift and quit devol someday
2. Carin may quit band
3. I will be sacked from band
4. What if Xiao Marc drifts away
5. When will be my dying day
6. Will Arthur be my brother-in-law
7. When will Belle pass away
8. Will I be tall soon

haha, I dunno. But really really negative thoughts start running through my mind. And I believe some are bound so happen.
Why must there be seperation in this world?

Oh come on,
be optimistic! Why am I thinking of all these nonsense, -danggggg

Saw justin timberlake perform sexyback for the europe music awards at copenhagen. He's damn suave! Then later.. MUSE! They sang starlight. I LOVE THAT SONG >.< Rihanna was there too, nelly furtado sang man-eater. The killers were there too!
The europe music awards was much better than the america music awards. =p

Band camp just ended, =)

Hope Xiao Marc recovers soon!

" whats wrong with her, "

My head is spinning.
When I was going to meet my sister,
I swear it feels like I can faint anytime.


"Where are you?
It feels so empty here,"

The Jamestown Story - And Then I Turned Seven

I've been waiting
and patiently praying
for this moment all my life.
And I never
thought I'd ever
feel so glad to be alive.

I've spent so many years
dreaming of this.
I'm long overdue.
And finally all my dreams are happening
in an ideal form of view.

Lets take this moment,
squeeze it and hold it
for the rest of our lives.
And the time will
never come to say goodbye.
Goodbye.

I've spent so many years
dreaming of this.
I'm long overdue.
And finally all my dreams are happening
in an ideal form of view.

Form of view
Form of view

And I may not be perfect
but I'll always be there.
Because I know you're worth it.
You're the answer to all of my prayers.

Damn regret - RJA
(alright I couldnt find the song anywhere, so found an... empty vid with just the song)


The moon is shining bright
The mood is feeling right
I'll kiss you on your neck
People'll stare and we won't care
We're high above the ground
We're nowhere to be found
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel like I'm born again
Again, I am repeating myself
And I know it is gone for you
To sit and pretend
Damn regret, I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me
'Cos I'm real fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?
I'm wishing you were here
My weakness is my fear
Alone I am myself
No reason, life for me to care
Distracted by the sound
I hear footsteps all around
Empowered by adrenaline
Feel like I'm born again
Again, I am repeating myself
And I know it's gone for you
To sit and pretend
Damn regret, I try to forget
Don't worry about me
'Cos I'm real fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?
You're the only one I turn to
When I feel like no-one's there
And when I'm lonely in my darkest hour
You give me the power
To sit and pretend
Damn regret, I'll try to forget
Don't worry about me
'Cos I'm real fine
Cast my line
To see what's behind
Did you think you persuaded me to let you go?
Did you think I forget?
Did you think I surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?
Did you think I forget?
Did you think I surrender myself to persuade you to let me go?


- I - am - so - bored -

Sometimes when you really hate the band,
you can't.
Cos you have the sweetest section!
My section rockkkssssssssssssss.

yanling said, " ruishan! my playing partner, you not here then nobody play with me! "

Although she can be very very very chatty and noisy and times, she can be really sweeeet and caring! haha.

I havent seen my boy for 5 whole days! =(

Have to go to shi zheng's house later, he's in band camp. sheeeeeeeeeeeesh. what do I do there? Oh, joanne will be there, yay~ I love my cousins.

And the cousin's sentosa outing this sunday is postponed because of me, and partly arthur too, cos he's in the hospital. Hope it's not dengue fever! 'Fever' is owning the world.

Im feeling so happy and contented now,
but im missin' one big thing....!

MARCUS MARK! =p

Please please please stop complaining,
cos it's seriously irritating.
Shoot me with all the sacarsm for all I care,
just stop bothering people.

Wanna confront?
Come to ME. =.=
---------------------------

Alright, my sister just lent me books!
I love one of 'em, it's called " the five people you meet in heaven ".
Read the first 3 pages this morning, it's really nice. hehehehehe.
reading spreeeeeeee~
Actually, reading during the hols is quite dumb, but I dont care, since Im rotting at home these days.

Havent seen marky for a few days, damn. Why can't some smart scientist quickly invent... er, how do you call it? Teleport-...y? LOL, ah, you know what I mean. Teleport. It is impt okay! Ppl wont be late, saves time, saves petrol, aeroplanes, vehicles arent need anymore! Global warming will not happen, less air pollution, no acid rain. HEALTHY LEH! And my darling can just be right here beside me! =p

Okay, my sunburn - face is peeeeeling. =.= I look so disease-d.

Oh yes, I saw this when I went to get my lunch with my sister.

Rocks right! woa, hit bullseye la. If you ever wear this shirt out, those ah bengs are just gonna whack you up. But honestly, I'll feel proud to wear it, heh!

" My boy! I'm missin' you hell loads! "

The rose arthur gave to my sister!

I was SO bored, took a picture of it, edited a lil'.

Just one rose,

and it can melt a woman's heart!

Was on the way back home,

when I heard this conversation between 3 kids.

Boy 1: Eh! come out play leh

Boy 2: cannot la.. my mother dont allow

Boy 3: walao.. then how...

Boy 1: I know! I always make my mother angry, then she let me come out

Boy 3: really meh?

Boy 1: ya la, she like that one. crazy one lor

Boy 3: eh! then you make your mother angry la, then she will let you come out.

Boy 2: huh...

These lil' boys are sooooo naive! And to think that Boy 1, who gave that idea, was the oldest. Lols. I pray for Boy 2 to NOT make his mummy angry!

These children are willing to hurt their mother's heart just to go out and play, oh gosh.. I dont blame them, but that shows how great mothers are. You dont know how much you've hurt them, how much you've troubled them when you were young. But all they do is just to love you more and more, day by day. Putting in so much effort, just hoping to see their child be healthy and be a useful person. Dont ever say your mother doesnt love you, cos when it comes to problems in life, it's not your friends that would help you in any way, but it's your mother. They are the ones who would do anything, anything they could, just for you.

I heard of a story from a DJ on the radio. He said, " when I was young, I ran away from home. I went over to my best friend's house to stay, and it was really fun. I didnt miss my parents at all, and I stayed there for months, without going home. Then I fell really really sick, I couldnt get off the bed. At that time, I got no cash with me and I was desperate. My friend's parents didnt want me to pass the fever to my best friend, so I was kinda isolated. No one took care of me. I cried, I cried for almost everything. Then finally, I decided to call my parents. They came to pick me, and they came in flash, as if it only took 1 minute to travel. They took care of me, brought me to the doctor. Im all fine now, and because of that, I realise how impt family is, and never take your parents' love for granted. "

Mummy, I love you! =)

" marky, I love you too! " heh.

YAYYYYYYYYYYYY!
the ARC interview was goooood.
heh, that jimmy guy from the Virtuoso Arts is damn nice. =)
many many many good news for our team, BUT, private and confidential.

We were late for the interview la! haha.
Met up at carin's house, then we discussed until 4.45pm.
The interview is at 5pm.

" DIE LA! HAVE TO CAB THERE ALR! "

*rushes off to main road*
*flags like crazy*

Lols. yay, luckily the -not punctual- thing did not affect the impression they have on us! =D

Jun Hao is damn funny, he made us laugh and laugh.
In the interview, Jimmy should be the one asking us questions.. and it ended up JunHao asking him so many questions.

For Clarissa, doing the Imaging, she will be taking courses by MABELINE, and Tony and Hanks (sth like that) FOR FREE! She'll learn make up stuffs and hair-do too, thats DAMN lucky okay! next time you'll see a superrrr pretty clarissa, heh. She has to doll me and carin up, using 77th street's clothes.

Music producers+artistes, amanda and junhao\me and carin, they'll be going under some course by agnes. She's a professional singer.. and is really good. heh! Cant wait!

Marketing Manager, Pyu, will have to take a course about learning how to do marketing and business stuffs. Alot of brainy work, pyu pyu, you shall get smarter and smarter!

During the interview, Jimmy asked me and carin to sing a few lines for him. We were like SHOCKED! cos we didnt prepare anything nor expect them to ask us to sing. Lols, and Carin had sore throat. Gosh, so fine, we sang Jie Tuo. Woa, I tell you, the blending sounded tyco-ly nice! And that made Jimmy amazed. XD

yay yay yay!

what should our group name be?

" I miss you! "

CLASS OUTING!
yesterday, gosh.
PYE WORE BIKINI, but she didnt showcase it, she wore a brown shirt over. We wanted to strip that shirt out! LOL.
the scorching sun made me look like a malay right now, and I think Im gonna peel soon, cos it hurts! sheeeeesh, that dark tanning oil.

Class 2/1, (30 ppl went!)

Thats MingLiang and Xiao Marc, SUNTANNING!
Mingliang looks more like a man now, LOL.

Thats part of the class, those who were so afraid of the sun. Haha.
Jeremy(blurking), MingLiang and Benjamin. Thats me and pyu! Besties =)The girls! XDPyu, Me- Our shadows! YESSSS, WE LOVE SUNTANNING! =D (but it sucks to have sunburn -.-)The class, all starting looking for food.

Leaving Sentosa for STEAMBOAT at Marina Bay! =p

=) Good old friends. Me, Pyu, Mel, Joycey, Mabel.

Love of my life! =DDD

Hmmm.. so what is MingLiang trying to do?

FINALLY! we reached marina bay. =) waiting for ky to arrive...

Oh yes, story time. Alright, when we reached there, we had to wait for ky to come before taking a bus to the steamboat place. Then there was this old man pestering us to go for HIS steamboat restaurant. We DID consider going, but he was way too irritating. Told him we are still waiting for our friend, he kept insisting that half of the class can go up to his van first, then it'll bring us there. =.= He was irritating dan hui like crazy, and making her go nuts la. I couldnt take it, so the mighty ruishan comes in action! haha. =p

Here you go, the conversation between me and the old man:

man: I can give you all 1 extra can of drink,

me: No, uncle. This is not about the price, nor the drinks. We're still waiting for a friend so can you please give us some time. *smiles at man*

man: okay okay.

- 5 mins later -

man: half of the class can go into the van first, then the rest wait.

*discussion with dan hui*

zzz....

danhui whispers: this is not the one we want to go, I havent been to this one before. But how to reject him?

me: okay okay, so we're not going to his steamboat la?

danhui: nope, we're not.

* ruishan walks up to old man who was STILL pestering my other classmates *

man: can go up the van alr?

me: uncle, this one is not the one we're going, so we wont be going up the van.

man: why, I can give you extra drinks.

me: I alr said it's NOT about the drinks okay.

man: which is the one you want to go? which, which, which, huh?

me: you know what, now it's our choice NOT to go to yours. And ME, as the customer, need NOT explain to you WHY I dont wanna go to yours alright. So no matter HOW many free drinks or HOW CHEAP you're gonna charge us, I DONT CARE, futhermore, EXPLAIN to you.

* man stares at me *

man: okay okay. *nods and nods, but still not wanting to leave*

me: get it? then? * stares at man *

man: okay okay. *walks off*

THE MOST IRRITATING OLD MAN EVER. =.= dont you dare pester my friends or i'll slap you in the face with my words. Dont say im mean to an old man, but he is touting, and he should have his limits.

Okay, then finally, our steamboat! =DCount the moneyyyyy~Me, starting the steamboat.

HAHA, this is the best shot. Applaudddddddd!And me and pyu, going to ki siao alr.. LOL.

Okay, just look at the 2 jokers, pyu and xiao marc. Xiao marc wants to smack pyu's head, and it made pyu go crazy.

Thats the 2 jokers, look at how they're cooking. The fire was too hot, and the oil was splattering like crazy. The prawn eaters! they are cruel okay, they cook prawns alive! I couldnt take it, I turned away. =) hungry ghosts.
The other table, futher housewives! XD
Dan hui, Iris, Joycey and me! =D the anti-prawn-killers.
The spastic four!
End of steamboat! yay, satisfaction. =)
Arcade time! =D (ya, sure)

Okay, storytime again.

MY JOURNEY HOME WITH IRWIN AND XIAO MARC. =.=

We didnt wanna take the normal way home, so irwin showed us another way. We had to walk a FREAKING LONG DISTANCE. =.= And it's damn scary. Look at this, it's like never ending.

Then we were heading to the highway, to look for a bus stop. Then there was this BIG AND DARK AND WET GRASS PATCH. it's all surrounded with tress and all, it was disgusting. And Irwin said we had to walk through there. I took my first step. "croak" fuck, there are toads. So I asked irwin, " are there toads? " He said, " yea i think so. A few only la. " Fine, so I just kept walking. Until I realised, THE TOADS WERE FUCKING BIG. AND THEY WERE JUMPING AND JUMPING. SOME RIGHT BESIDE YOUR LEGS, AND FOR GOODNESS SAKE, I WAS WEARING SLIPPERS. =.= As I walked deeper in, I see more toads jumping. I SCREAMEDDDDDD! then xiao marc was nice enough, he allowed me to pull him and he ran with me. rah, stupid toads. I HATE TOADS I HATE TOADS. Irwin was laughing at me somemore, asswipe! >.<

Fine, then yay! we reached the highway.

Damn, we realised it's super long and dark.. See,

And if you look downwards to your right, RESERVOIR! pretty pretty scenery. BUT I SWEAR, it's damn tiring to walk such a long stretch. =.=


Then when we reached the bus stop. Last bus is gone. no more bus. LUCKILY, IRWIN GOT MONEY. He treated us a taxi home, wheeeeee. For your info, we walked from marina bay to nicoll highway, it's damn far okay.

Lesson learnt: wanna go out with irwin? train your stamina first, and be prepared for anything insane.

The 3 heroes! Irwin, Xiao marc, Me. we managed to get home!

Interesting day I had. =) Love my friends. heh!

I thought I could see darl yesterday, but sheeeesh, he was going over to clarence place. It would be much more fun if he was around!

" If only I had that taxi ride home with you, "