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Thats the CNA news on ARC.

Lol! : D

Havent updated for really long. Will post AMKSS BAND pics later! =DDDDDD

I was just day dreaming just now, and my mind actually drifted to...

DEATH.

I woke up from my day dream, and I realised I was gasping for breath. So afraid that I would just disappear any minute, I clinged on to the arm rest of the massage chair tightly. Why was I so frightened? I have no idea. But I just got to know that I AM actually afraid of death. The sounds around me got muted, and I felt my hairs standing at its ends. God, whats happening to me? I got that slight bit of feeling that I was going to leave my family and friends just the next minute and it is so fucking scary. Whats after death? Will I be alone? I dont want. I need that another chance to continue my life. I dont want an end. There will be NO MORE life. No more of anything. And I will have to be all alone. I want my family. They're the greatest ppl. Can I see them after I die? Will I remember things in the past? Or will everything be erased and I'll just reincarnate and the cycle goes on? What is on the other side of the world? Is there really heaven and hell? Will you see.. perhaps, Jesus? Can I see him?

Or perhaps, just a fullstop to life?

Then again, treasure. Why complain, why compare, why envy, why hate, why curse, why scold. Why anything. Your days to live, isnt that long afterall.

Alright, I wont wanna go on saying cheesy stuff like, "live life to the fullest" and things like that. You gotta let your mind drift, and feel the same thing as what I did just now.

Then..

let's talk about it some other day. :)

Okay, sleep early guys! Listen to your parents, and keep laughing. It aint such a difficult thing yeah? hahaha.

Ciao!