ruishannn

I cant seem to complete a post.
Once I type a sentence, I press "backspace" all the way.
That key has been hit by me too many times, it's breaking.
Seems like I dont know what to say,
perhaps
dont know how to say.
It feels different now, really it does.

Now ARC is back.
Damned.
Clashes and clashes
I cant stand it anymore, it's IRRITATING the HELLLL outta me.
Fuck okay fuck.
and when my mum nags NON STOP for me to go and sleep,
it seriously explodes me right away, and I feel like crying.

Making a fool outta me.
What on earth is WRONG with the world?
When my heart is back in band,
you fool me with date clashes and timing-in-betweens.
Crap, tell me what do i do now.

Mr Ng wants me to go for a recording tmr.
Sing some environmental song, piano by Benjamin I think.
Thing is, I have to get the tune of the song in one fucking night.
Very funny huh.
And whats next?
Class drama.
I wanna throw everything off me.
But then again,
who's gonna pick them up?
No one.

and you you you and you and you you you and you you
Tons and Tons of youuuuuuuuuuuu-s,
cant just be understanding enough to know that I cant entertain you for that moment
that I cant be there for you everytime
Im not your Mother for god's sake alright.
You are NOT my responsibility.
Please.. help me.
Not push me.

Now what?
Class drama.
Band.
Recordings.
Photo shoots.
ARC meetings.
Homework.
Friends.

Poured all over me.

and I still have to handle you, and you.
but I also have to thank you, and you.

the only one thing to look forward to,
11th August 2007 - Launch of ARC Album 2007

I have totally no idea
what I'm thinking now.

...
Im sorry for hurting you.
But I just cant hold back anymore.



then again,
time.

But something I've realised,
I DO need my lovelies.
Irwin, Xmarc, Carin! :D