My thoughts you can't decode

I guess I'm banned from saying that ever again.
I went nuts, I didn't know what was coming over me.

I'm really tired.
All the emotions taking over.

I have to believe in myself.
I have to
I have to
I have to
I have to

Thanks LiLi for playing badminton with me.
Thanks Afiqah and Hamid for helping me out.
Thanks Melvyn for pulling me up.

Thanks Rui Shan
for giving up

NOT! :D

It was marathon today.
"Ruishan come bbox now!"
"Ruishan can you come up now?"
"Ruishan, you're needed here."
RUI SHAN HERE RUI SHAN THERE RUI SHAN EVERYWHERE
Lets clone me! :D

If by any chance the school wants to renovate,
I WILL PERSONALLY GO TO THE PRINCIPAL AND REQUEST FOR THE BBOX TO BESIDE THE DANCE STUDIO.
COS RIGHT NOW, THEY ARE AT OPPOSITE ENDS OF THE SCHOOL. YOU IDIOTS!

Things are clearing up. Preparing for Panorama, Dance BBQ and IS Assessment, and The Box Works 2 currently.
J2 prelims and IS are over, hurray! :D
Full rehearsals tmr for The Box Works 2..

Whoohoooo lets all rejoice for me having a wonderful family and supportive friends! :)
Never felt so thankful before. Hahahaha RuiShan you idiot.

Circus Solarus :D - Melissa's Camera

getting excited before the show... :p

Hamid!

Me, Mel and Kevin :D

Mel and I! :D

Solo~

I look tiny here lol.

CX trying to be gay. Wait, he already is!

I LOVE AO6!!! :D

Melvyn trying to be me HAHAHA

Rehearsal... :) 1959

we had to make 100 boxes... x.x almost died. thanks Lili and Zee who came to help us out! :)

Cleaning up the bbox...

Making of the masks! :) Felina's IS mask design.

Look at their crooked noses~ Lol!

After painting them...

Cheshire Cat! (melvyn)

Queen of Hearts! (me)

Hurray! So proud of us lol.

Will upload more another day!

Just finished the performance at Esplanade, Circus Solarus Fashion of the Future! :D
It was really fun and shu came all the way to support us with her darling DSLR!
She took really nice photos of me being spastic. So thats me being spastically nice LMAO
Yay it was really fun, I love it! Will post e photos up once my darling shu uploads it! :D
Sadly xiao li and mel didnt come, but nvm, the photos will be good enough to give an exact picture of the performance ^^

Haha I haven't done alot of my homework and we'll be missing lessons this week to help J2 TSD prelims/showcase.
Nvm, I will chiong during June holidays!
Won't give up, I won't! :D

I failed my lit badly hahaha 5/25 I think :p total misinterpretation of e poem -.- so sian!
2 ppl in our class passed econs, and both are guys. So hurray to me.
Maths I got 45%. Hurray.. I WILL LOVE MATHS FROM NOW ON.
Passed TSD.. 57%.
Ugh. Things arent going well.
But I will keep trying! :D

WHY CAN'T I BE ROBOT.
ROBOT SHAN WILL BE COOL.

Quote for TSDians: "Eating and Sleeping is optional"

Many rubies poppin' outta my face! :(

p/s: I need to sleep. bye bye assholes.

Insane. Lol

First things first, I'm not suicidal.
Just feel like throwing people down 40 stories.

Fucking loads of things to settle.

Met up PW group today.
GPP improved ALOT, very detailed and precise now.
Rehearsed Mono and Duologue in the BBox today with ChenXing (finally).
Exam on the 30th. Dance BBQ/stayover 30th as well. Kill me.
Finally got my lightings and set settled, with my choreo-ed movements and direction on stage.
I need to memorize the lines.
Memorize.
I need a memory card.

Circus Solarus showcase at esplanade tmr.
ha
ha
ha

I'm fucking tired.

tsd students excused from a whole week of lessons next week.
how
the
hell
am
i
supposed
to
catch
up

help.

Panorama coming up as well.

wow.

I'm awesome right.
Ha
ha
ha

Sportsmeet on Wedesday! :)

Putting up our flags and setting up our territory..

Mark and Steph!

Oh how cute An An is! :D

Rachel looks cute here :p

Look at Shahidah, ever ready~~~

Our Hawk Mascott, Mark Benedict David Cheong Tuck Fai (yes thats his full name) :)

Priscilla's 100m race :)

The guy who made me want to whack him like how he whacked the snare.

Our Hero of the Future. Kboy.

OUR RACE 4 by 100m RACE!!! LANE 4 YO.

CHIONG AHHHH~~~

Walking back with Victory~~ hahaha

CHEEEEER~~~~

09A06 - 1st for 4 by 100m!

Some nice shots...

Sexy legs above us.. LOL

Yes something you'll expect from me...

Shu and her many many interesting cameras...

Guest and Principal.

yay prize presentation!

pretty babes :D

Oh man look at pris' legs!

The person I hate most in TPJC.

Miss Lam. Math Teacher. Super cute, but can be irritating and impatient at times. Hahaha

Solo fan pics!

HURRAY!!!

Anw! My shuttle run improved from 10.4s to 9.7 secs! :D Miss Siti, MY COFFEE BEAN~~~ HAHAHA

Edurace today. Fun! :D

Busy days ahead.

Guys, if you're really free,

PLEASE COME SUPPORT CIRCUS SOLARUS SHOWCASE AT ESPLANADE FOYER

SUNDAY 24 MAY

6.30pm - 7pm

8.30pm - 9pm

COSTUMES PARADE - FASHION OF THE FUTURE

***Costumes are all designed by each of us, individually, and will be wearing them ourselves on that day.

Please come and support!!! :D

4 by 100m race today.
We came in 1st place! :D
Haven't had a gold medal for a really long time, damn happy!!!

In life
you have to run as fast as you can as well
many will be chasing after you fast from behind

hidden behind masks
with knives in their hands

Sometimes in death, people heal.
and
Sometimes in life, people kill.

Photos are taken by Shu's awesome DSLR!!! Will post em up once she uploads them! :)

Everything that happened today was disappointing.

Don't want to talk about it.

Sportsmeet tmr..
Running 4 by 100m.
I hope it's not a disappointment as well.

Group Project Proposal took up one third of my life btw.

Take 2 please.

ALL THANKS TO SHU'S ALL NEW DSLR, WE HAVE PRETTY PHOTOS THAT DAY!!! :D

Having dinner at teahouse :) their duck is good man!

while waiting for the A03 peeps..

I can't wait to slash those three extras behind. LOL

I HATE THE EXTRAS BEHIND UGH!!!!!!!!

JUST LOOK AT THE EXTRAS ARGH

Every night... (sounds wrong)

okay loneliness.

I look sleepy lol.

Something you'd expect from me..

Shao tong came! :D

Mel solo~~~ HAHAHA

The whites

and the blacks!

spas (again)

A03 Lit peeps :)

Imeysha, Shu, Eugenia and Nasha. I swear Nasha is damn funny.

They were doing that "tammy" maid thingy. HAHAHA hilarious.

The actors :)

TSD discussion..

Wheeeee! Good luck to shu yi for her Chinese oral exam tmr! :D

We're learning Stage Makeup for TSD lesson tmr, I CANT WAIT OMG~~~~~~

It's time for truth.

My sister went for a jog.

Everyone say wow.
"Wow....."

Today is a better day.
I'm having my all time fav chicken rice now. Shiok.

The dance studio looks fab now, with all the new wall pics and spring cleaning.
Wheel of torture will be up soon, muahahahaha.

I need to watch some good horror movies.

Went for Proof at DBS Arts Centre today.
It wasn't satisfying.. :(

Sometimes we just don't understand what it is to meant to live.
We're all just a bunch of losers.
We slog all day long
and result in.. nothingness?
No. There is passion and love.
But when you're dead,
who really remembers what you've done?
Will you even remember what you've done?
Will it all be forgotten?
Then what's the purpose of death anniversaries.
We just pray and talk to something that might not even exist.
No fucking idea what all of us are doing.
I especially hate fucking braggers. You empty shells. You don't even know who you are. You're just there, so alone and fucking clueless on what you're doing. You just want people to know, know how greeeeat you are.

I don't exactly know what I'm saying.

I'm just confused.
Wait.

I spoilt my voice ever since I screamed for hours non-stop when we got our SYF results.
It's not recovering.
Neither are my thigh muscles.

IS assessment is coming up. 1000 write-up not done yet.
MDC needs some rearrangement and plannings.
PW GPP isnt working.
Homework pisses me off.

Hahaha.
Ha

ha
ha.

Things are going fine...
just some irritating people and clashes in schedules.

I hate it when I have understand that the world is that realistic.

What do you treasure most?

Those who have decided that winning is the only option can always make the impossible possible -- Daisaku Ikeda

Much Ado about Nothing at Fort Canning Park with the TSD students!

Our foooood..

The beautiful stage :)

Me and Afiqah!

J2 seniors! :)

We were kinda surrounded by Ang Mohs.. anw, there was one scene where Adrian Pang was naked, only covering his dick with a cowboy hat hahaha, then one ang moh lady went "wow he's hot!"

Candid...

More pics of shu's birthday celebration! :D

:D I Love Shu!

If you yourself don't have faith in your team,
your team will never have faith in you.

Just came back from Much Ado about Nothing at Fort Canning Park. That play was AWESOME~~~ Adrian Pang acted in it and his accent was really goooood! The Shakespeare play was performed well, worth it!!! :) Photos with mel, upload it another time!

Cake for Mel's birthday on Friday! :D

After watched Precious Little at The Arts Theatre. We headed to burger king and I have no idea why are our peeeeks looking so spastic lol!

GAGA ISAAC??? HAHAHA

Then it was Shu's Birthday on Saturday!!! :D (more pics with mokky) We went to catch 17 Again at Cathay! IT WAS DAMN GOODDDDDDDDDD! :D

THEN SO COINCIDENTALLY, I MET THE PERSON I REALLY MISS, MARCUS LEONG FU ZHI!!! :D Woah so happy after that. Really miss him like mad lo! He was going up the escalator and I was going down. Then he spotted me at the other end and then we ran out of the escalator and ran up/down the stairs. Hahaha dramamama. His new haircut yo!

So we continued to make our way to Esplanade for a play, Madwoman's Diary.

Love my Friends! :D

Belle!!!

So cute right hahahaha

Mrs Lian left our school already.. so we took instant photos with hello kitty film. It's damn nice!!!

The girls with mrs lian :)

Our clique :)

As a classsss... ;D

Mokky!

Shu!

Random LOL!

Guys~

Look at what dear shu gave me when she heard about my vp post! She's damn cute man..

IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY NOW SHU. LOVE YOU!!!! :D

Unexpected results..
I think I'm really lucky.

I'm glad I have my friends and family to root me behind.
I'm really grateful.

Yup.
I'm the Vice-President of MDC.
It was a tough fight.
And there'll be more to come.

LASTLY!!!
SHU YI'S BIRTHDAY IS IN HALF AN HOUR'S TIME (9May) HAHAHA
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEETIE LOVE YOU LOADS! :D
SEE YOU TMR!! HAHAHAHA

Cheers!
Everything happens for a reason.

Thats me and Jolyn flipping! I'm the one on the left with Eugene partner! Wheehoooo!

On the left, on Eugene's shoulder. Jolyn, right, on Tze Haw's shoulder! :D

THE DUETS!!!! WHOOHOOO~~~~ I'm in the centre, on Eugene's shoulder! :D

Preparing to flip down... LOL

WHOOOHOOOO NICE SHIATZZZZZZZZZZ

End of the dance! :D

Will get more pics soon! Wheeehooooooo Love love love dance! :DDDD

Election for EXCO of MDC tmr anw, HAHAHAHA.

After ranting so much to Melvyn...
I feel so much better.

Gonna change my monologue to a classical one instead.
Xingxing and I decided that we could not part with The Dumbwaiter.
No more "I always loved men."
HAHAHA
Taming of the Shrew is funny.
Hopefully I can catch up.

SCREWED UP.
SCREW LAMS.
I HATE THE LAM TEACHERS LOL.
ESP THE MATH ONE.

VERY WELL.
AFTER SPENDING THE WHOLE NIGHT SKETCHING THE COSTUME FOR DUOLOGUE AND STAYING BACK IN SCHOOL THE PAST FEW DAYS TO REHEARSE THE NEW ABSURD SCRIPT,

THE SCRIPT WAS FKING REJECTED.

ABSURD = COMTEMP = SIMILAR TO MONOLOGUE = UNACCEPTABLE

okay yes partly our fault, didnt research properly
BUT DOES THAT MATTER SO MUCHHHHH BOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOO
I'M REALLY DAMN SIAN RIGHT NOW
HAVE TO GO BACK TO THE GREEK PLAY WHICH I REALLY HATE
I TOTALLY LOVE THE DUMBWAITER LAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

THIS IS DRIVING ME NUTS
YOU BITCHESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS GET LOST

UGH I LOST HOPE IN LIFE.

*slits wrists* <---- HAHAHAHAHAHAHA WTH!!!!!!!!!!!! lmao

Haha Birthday Card for WanChin! :D

POOP by The Finger Players at Esplanade was terrific.. Can't wait for Madwoman's Diary! :D

Tried out restoration comedy today. It was really funny and awkward. Girls had to hold fans and walk with their breasts forward (leading).

Settled on Duologue already and I'm really happy about it.

Hopefully Miss Norzian doesnt reject it.

We're doing Harold Pinter - The Dumbwaiter, it's really cool.

I'm some horny woman in my monologue.. Ha Ha Ha very funny.

Playwriting by Chong Tze Chien tmr!!! He was the director for POOP I think.. this is awesome!

Dance after that! :D

Whooohooooo. Sketching costumes now.. zzzz damn tired.

Things are really getting crazy for me........................................
Take a chill pill.
I must get things done.
Must.

My mono+duologue is still not settled.
I haven't even started on my write-up...
Don't bother talking about costume and set design.
Reviews. Plenty of em.

Uh fuck.

I need to rant.
And thats also wasting time.

Failed my maths test - "due to poor performance..." I really think maths destroys my life. It does.
"So far among those that I've marked, nobody has passed yet" - econs
I hope TSD will be fine.. feedback will be given on thursday.
"Alot of you are still failing due to misintepretation of the poem" - literature
I don't really care about GP cos the teacher talks cock.
PI is a fucking bitch and PW will commence soon.

Fail fail fail.
Sucha failure yo.

Why do some fall in love so easily?
Do they know what love is?
Is there even true love?

Sometimes I really wonder how some can accept another person in their life so quickly.
Do they really love that person, or do they just need security and sexual satisfaction?
Y'know, it's amazing how we treat love and friendship so lightly.
Does it really mean that little to us?

I no longer believe in true love.

Swine flu is killing the human race.
We're dying
Ha
Ha
Ha

End of the World

This post is random.

Yes it's quite obvious that I'm Rui Shan and I hate sweets.
Very random but please rmb not to offer me sweets. Ty.

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