Saturday, October 31, 2009
Wah omg I'm so dead tired. Danced for like 8 hours, my body is aching so badly. 0.0 Went for TPJC dance prac in the morning, good progress! :) Headed down to amkss right after that and I was an hour late -___-!!! Hello it's seriously damn tiring to travel here and there ughhh i hate traveling! Did e duet with xiaomarc and I would say it turned out better than I expected. Hopefully we'll make it by 8 Dec. Jia you Devol! Oh yes talking about that, OPERATION SMILE CHARITY DANCE SHOW: 8 DEC @ RP, 7.30pm. TICKETS FOR $10!!! PLEASE COME AND SUPPORT DEVOLUSION/ TPJC MDC/ SDZ/ AMKSS MDC!!! :D Spread e word and order your tickets NOW NOW NOW! Shingz I'm seriously SUPER tired I feel like I've lost my body or something. Legs are breaking. Muscles are tearing. Eyes are poppin. BLAST YOUR SPEAKERS. YOU GOTTA HEAR THESE TWO SONGS. Amazing performers, technicians, designers. Sigh! How I wish I could be part of this. Thursday, October 29, 2009 The reason why I havent been blogging it's because of..... Boys Over Flowers. Blame it on Rachel Boo!!! HAHAHA Monday, October 26, 2009 Final submission of WR today. This disgusting sickass retarded set of depressing papers is finally handed up for good. Had OP Run 2 today as well, I would say I'm really satisfied with my group because all the members are rather of the same standard and we are cool people ^_^ hahaha Presentation went well, even though the question were rather badly answered LOL!!! (we didnt know we were gonna receive qns this time round) Yup, good day today! :D I was very high, maybe cos of my two babes Boo&Mok hehehe we couldn't stop being spastic I swear. We.Are.So.Retarded.You.Won't.Believe.It. Okay great I still have TSD design stuff to do, dance pieces to choreo, OP, I&R, read L4L (I seriously hate reading -.-) and.. GO OUT WITH BOO&MOK. Teeheee! Anw I've uploaded more pics on FB, check em out, i think they're funny enough to brighten up your day. LMAO Pics taken on Saturday! (PW Day =___=) So cool right, 3 of us in the same PW group lol!           Love them loads ^_^Okay. My butt is rotting. My eyes feels like it's bleeding. I've been sitting in front of the comp for e whole day, editing e OP slides. Seriously damn tiring O.O Luckily I woke up at 4pm HAHAHAHA :D Ciao ppl, OP is coming. Ugh I'm scared! Thursday, October 22, 2009 I'm so bored. Life hasnt been any simpler/easier actually. There's still operation smile, TSD designing (-.-"ffff), Sydney trip preparation, PW, TSD showcases. Okay at least all these are much more enjoyable compared to studying LOL!!! Yay :D Time to work out. Rui Shan, you're looking anorexic again. Wednesday, October 21, 2009 OKAY PROMOS RESULTS! MATHS - D (one more mark to C!!!) TSD - C (one more mark to B!!!) ECONS - B LIT - E GP - D my MSG is freaking 3.6!!!!!! my mid years msg was like 6!!!! LOL WHOOHOOOOO!!!! I MORE THAN PASSED ALL OF THE SUBJECTS!!!! TSD GET C IS LIKE CRAZY (for my standard)!!!! I'm really lousy BUT LUCKY! :p I CAN'T BELIEVE IT!!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG *runs amok* :D thank you mok mok for studying last minute with me :D TSD family must promote tgt!!! 09A06 must promote tgt!!! MDC must promote tgt!!! Okay I'm praying so hard, because the overall results (including the 30% of the other tests) arent included yet. So I pray that everything will go fine!!! :D Damn happy. But I heard there are like 148 retainees :( zzzz nooooo.... Tuesday, October 20, 2009 Mark's lame jokes can be funny. "OMG I'M HAVING BRAIN FREEZE OUCH" "Well at least it proves that you have a brain" I laughed like mad hahaha damn lame can!!! ok i'm retarded. ------------------------------------------------ It was my choice. The Taxi - Amy Lowell When I go away from you The world beats dead Like a slackened drum. I call out for you against the jutted stars And shout into the ridges of the wind. Streets coming fast, One after the other, Wedge you away from me, And the lamps of the city prick my eyes So that I can no longer see your face. Why should I leave you, To wound myself upon the sharp edges of the night? ------------------------------------------------ The Nathan Boy is cool. "The Modern Dance team stole our hearts with their amazingly synced and energetic performance."  LOOK AT MDC AND 09A06!!! And look at "Rui Shan and the Boyzzz" LOL!!! This video Karen showed us is really cute!!! Teachers are getting more lame but interesting. Haha!Results. I got back H2 Econs and H1 Lit today. Shall not reveal my results yet. Tmr is my dying day because I'm gonna be getting back e subjects that I suck in - H2 Math, H2 TSD and GP. Good luck mannnnzzzzz =_= Ugh... I'm super not looking forward to tmr. I know I've already screwed TSD theory upside down so that I can already give up and leave aside. Now my most hated subject, MATHHHH, has to save me. That's quite impossible but I'm hoping for the best. Prrrrrrrrrrooooooooommmmmmooooooootttttttttttttteeee Pllllllllllllllllleeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaassssssssssssseeeee. Monday, October 19, 2009 Many many more on FB! :)    Results tmr :(Sunday, October 18, 2009 Met Leo at Novena today and practically slacked e whole day. Had lunch, then chilled at coffee bean. Crapped all the way lol. Have been damn sian recently. I guess cos we're getting our results back. Ah fuck I really don't wanna face it. I have a fucking strong feeling I'm going to retain. I'm serious. What do I do then. What do I do. what do I do 在我心上用力的开一枪 hu rt hur t h urt hu r t hurt h u r t nvm. I have dance as my remedy. thanks bye. Saturday, October 17, 2009 Just came back from Soka's Ignite performance! :D SYDC is super cool hahaha xmarc is so handsome omg lol Anw it was kinda like a devol reunion thing cos before that xq, carin, sharon and I met up. Danced at the Hometeam dance studio. Fun ^_^ Can't wait to perform tgt! I think I should set up a facebook acc for devol or sth right? Whoohoo. Pictures with XQ! Will uploading asap. grrr I'm really worried about promos results. We're getting em back like this coming week and I have an extremely bad feeling about it. Everyone is asking me about it. I mean obviously they ask me because they know very well that my results suck so maybe comparing themselves to me will make them feel better HAHAHA Sigh. I hear everyone aiming for As and I'm like "I WANT TO PASS CAN ALREADY". Honestly, I doubt it's that easy for me. I'm just aiming for straight Es really. I sincerely pray to promote or I'll be at a loss :( I've never been so uptight and concerned over academic results before. RUISHAN, CHILL!!! Yeah. I can't rewind time. Whats done is done, so even if I can't promote, what to do. I'll just have to continue my life and buck up. ........... :( somebody tell me I'll be fine. Friday, October 16, 2009 Pics from Sakae! For the firstttt time.......... BOOBOO UPLOADED IT SO QUICKLY!!! :D HAHAHAHA          Ending off with the Epic "Please~ Help me~" LOL Sakae sushi is yummy. I need to feast more. Although my stomach is like the size of a green bean. LolGonna watch Eugene and Xmarc for their dance perf tmr :) Devol dance prac tmr as well :) Dance dance dance! I love it because it's like a reward to me for working hard for exams. Dance IS really the best reward you can ever get. Thursday, October 15, 2009 I'm extremely unlucky today too. UGH LET'S NOT ELABORATE FURTHER BEFORE MY VESSELS EXPLODE. But luckily Boo, Kevin and Leo made things happier for the day. We caught Pandorum at Marina Square. Quite okay, so-so show. The mutated creatures are scary though lol. Boo treated us to sakae sushi buffet after that at Raffles Place :) Hahaha okay it's not very worth it for ME to go for buffets, but considering that the two guys are there and can help eat up my share, it was rather worth it la. Thank you Booboo! :D Total receipt was like $80... ? lol Photos with Boo (as usual) and she will take forever to upload (as usual) so maybe I will have to steal her memory card and upload myself instead (as usual).. HAHAHAHAHA Zzzz OM tmr =.= I hope I'm lucky tmr... Watch this! p/s: I wonder how're my results :( Wednesday, October 14, 2009 TeoHeng pics :D      Okay fun fun! :]Anyway. My prediction was right. Today was a bad day -___- I can't believe how unlucky I was. 1. Late for School 2. Discipline committee caught me and totally pissed me off (fuck, I shall not elaborate further. It's ridiculous and unbelievable how stupid the school system is) 3. I have to report to school earlier tmr and let the OM check my attire 4. Entered the Audi Lecture super awkwardly -.- 5. Got scolded by the teacher during the lecture because I was talking -.- (retarded) 6. Ordered meepok dry but the auntie gave me soup -.- Well dance saved me. Made me so much happier and optimistic hahaha Recapping the SYF dance just now with e club. SUPER FUNNY! :D It's quite cool how we still rmb and can look rather neat at some moments after rotting with books for months. :D Memories. hahahaha Love MDC! Met carin just now for devol's choreo. I'm so curious to know the end product of devol's piece lol. Alright. I've got PW work to do. How fun, I'm so eggcited -____- oh anw today's PW lecture on OP was damn GOOD. The best lecture I've ever attended. Our GP tutors wore our school uniform and acted as different kinds of students presenting. THEY'RE HILARIOUS. Their acting very convincing as well! Super cute teachers also! :D Hahaha *thumbs up*! K Ciao ppl, I believe I will be lucky tmr! :D p/s: the photographer told Deon that we (clarice, valarie, ruth and I) are pretty!!! :p happy! HAHAHA I have to know that some friends aren't worth to keep. Especially when they keep putting you down. ------------------------------------------ Okay I'm not in a very good mood now. Maybe because there's school tmr. Maybe because I realized that some of my old friends have changed. Maybe because I've become too much of a.. dartboard? Maybe because I'm just being anal and sensitive again. Whatever. I just don't feel good about what's gonna happen tomorrow. At least Mok and Boo made my day. Teoheng was fun today! We sang like crazy :p Hahaha. They're the best girlfriends. Leo came to join us too. We had Astons for dinner and it was rather satisfying. You know, being with my two darlings makes me feel so happy. It's so honest and simple. We have fun, we relax and enjoy. We make each other happy. We don't say hurtful things. We are true. :) Sigh. It's really disheartening to see people change. It's part and parcel of life. I can't deny that I didn't change because that's retarded and impossible. But seeing people you were once close to change into somebody you really dislike makes you wanna distant yourself away. I'm not angry I'm not disappointed Things are different now. I just can't wait for it to be over. p/s: teoheng pics asap! :) Monday, October 12, 2009 Today I had dance photoshoot at the bbox at 9.30am -.- and bloody hell I was early ok!!! but guess what? the photographers and in-charge took 1 hour to arrive. So we only started shooting at 10.30am -___________-!!! LAO NIANG COULD'VE SLEPT SOMEMORE! Nvm, the photoshoot took 2 freaking hours I was so god damn tired. We had to do power moves and it was much more tiring but professional as compared to the previous photoshoot. The photographers look so much more experienced and professional! :D Hope we look chio (ruth, clarice, valarie and I) in e photos :p Had PW group meeting after that to edit the WR. Oh I really hate doing it. PW IS SICK. Look at Susu's concentration level.  And OUR concentration level. HAHAHAHA Melody is a ghost.  Blue blue eyes :D      After PW, mok and leo accompanied me to the studio cos I needed to choreo some dance. Oh god I hope it gets better. They were trying to imitate me. Super funny! And Leo showed us some freaky psychic video. hmm... I shall not share the good stuff :P maybe some other time? hahahaK ennui. I'm so bored in the CC now I can rot and die on the spot. Basically, I'm waiting for my uncle to come because I gotta help him to do some catwalk/dance thing for some function. lol Teoheng with my girls tmr! :) Can't wait!!! Sunday, October 11, 2009 Peeeeeeks taken ytd! :) Sorry I was being retarded again lol  Mok is not camera shy i swear. NOT AT ALL!!! :P we swam after a few laps then got tired already. LOL after e swim :) Peeeeeks with devol! (pardon me for looking horrible because I met them after spending 4hrs on cleaning up the bbox) Our family photo! hahaha  Notice the height order. Xmarc used to be the first. Now he's the last and I have to be first -.- pro lor. win already. lol!!     This is the Capoeira Instructor! :) So talllllll.... lol Okay theres dance photoshoot tmr again :) lol and PW the whole day omg omg omg! Ciao ppl. Chillax, I love post-promos days.Saturday, October 10, 2009 These people make me extremely inferior. If my standard is 0.00001% of theirs, I'll be more than happy already. My fav pieces: Swimming and movie with mok today! :) Hahaha We watch Sorority's Row. It's not bad. Quite a common murder show though. Hmm life has been good ever since promos ended. Actually, trouble has just begun.. but ah well, lets look at the brighter side of life. Lol! Went for Capoeira's Dance workshop with my sister today. really interesting!!! hahaha funny as well :p I'm really eager to choreo the lyrical piece for devol but I'm just afraid it wouldn't be up to standard. It's been really long since I kept up with dance and I hope I can pull it off man.. sigh some god up there please bless me! pour some creativity rain and I shall drink it ok? mad mad mad ruishan you're mad. Oh I suddenly feel so lousy in dance I feel like suiciding. Let me drink some Dettol. Dettol oh Dettol, will you be my dance motto? (wth doesn't make sense) sorry I'm a retard. (glad I know) Wow imagine if your boyfriend did this for you. (credits to brandon for showing me this vid) LOOK AT BISCUIT! :D     Met Devol today! Omg havent seen them for really long already :) pics with sharon! Can't wait to start on e choreo and see e end product. Come support us on 7-8dec!!! Charity show :DFriday, October 09, 2009 These are the balloons my two sweethearts got me during the period of time when I was really upset!!! :) So sweet right. Forgot the upload the pics.     Today's -AFTER-PROMOS-WE-MUST-PLAY-DAY- Orchard Central :) The escalators freaked me out. Too high. It goes 3 lvls by 3 lvls, hello i'm afraid of heights!!!  Susu's epic ah lian face. Heaven's Loft! AWESOMEEEEE Shiok or what? :p The girls! (Wenzhen is not here, she still has her CSE paper, good luck sweetie!)Pris, Afiqah, Melissa, Boo, Me and Steph :D  SO COOL :D Love e lights  What more can you ask for :)Thursday, October 08, 2009 I think I finally found an answer. You were the reason why I was indecisive. It wasn't about them, it was about you. The Heart Of The Matter - Don Henley Eagles - Heart of the Matter I got the call today, I didn't wanna hear But I knew that it would come An old true friend of ours was talkin' on the phone She said you found someone And I thought of all the bad luck, And the struggles we went through And how I lost me and you lost you What are these voices outside love's open door Make us throw off our contentment And beg for something more? I'm learning to live without you now But I miss you sometimes The more I know, the less I understand All the things I thought I knew, I'm learning again I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter But my will gets weak And my thoughts seem to scatter But I think it's about forgiveness Forgiveness Even if, even if you don't love me anymore These times are so uncertain There's a yearning undefined ...People filled with rage We all need a little tenderness How can love survive in such a graceless age The trust and self-assurance that lead to happiness They're the very things we kill, I guess Pride and competition cannot fill these empty arms And the work I put between us, You know it doesn't keep me warm I'm learning to live without you now But I miss you, Baby The more I know, the less I understand All the things I thought I figured out, I have to learn again I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter But everything changes And my friends seem to scatter But I think it's about forgiveness Forgiveness Even if, even if you don't love me anymore There are people in your life who've come and gone They let you down you know they hurt your pride You better put it all behind you, baby; 'cause life goes on You keep carryin' that anger, it'll eat you up inside I've been tryin' to get down to the Heart of the Matter But my will gets weak And my thoughts seem to scatter But I think it's about forgiveness Forgiveness Even if, even if you don't love me anymore Sigh sigh nice song. ha.ha. ------------------------------------------------- OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE PROMOS ARE FRIGGIN' OVER MUAHAHAHA I CAN FINALLY BREATHE AGAIN!!! :D Maths paper wasnt as bad as I expected. TSD.. um let's not talk about it hurhur. I just wanna enjoy the time I have with the TSD family, 09A06 and MDC now. Don't wanna think about what may happen. So yeah, be happy while I can, before I get my disastrous results. After the tsd (last) paper, the tsd family went crazy (as usual), changed out of our uniforms and headed to town. Steph took us to Orchard Central's Heaven's Loft and it's really heavenly!!! We had Ben&Jerrys Ice Cream and it's bloody good. Lol! We slacked around, walked around aimlessly, chatted alot and had HTHT (heart to heart talk). Really love the TSD family. They're like my motivation for me to try to get pass my promos. I hope I will still be able to see them next year *cross fingers* Alright. Tmr I have to go to school at 8am for PW _|_ okay nvm yay chill I love PW.. err.... ha..ha Time to take out the to-do-list! :D Wednesday, October 07, 2009 Right now, I can only say that I'm extremely screwed for my 2 H2 papers. While my sis, dad and I were walking home from tpy central, we heard a father saying this to his child: "One little monkey jumping on the bed" *long pause* "Suddenly you fall down, you knock your head!" WTH!!! WHEN DID MONKEY BECOME THE CHILD, AND WHY DID THE MONKEY SUDDENLY FALL DOWN AND HIT HIS HEAD? LOL WHAT A WEIRD DAD, I WONDER WHAT IS HE THINKING DEEP DOWN. EEEE SO SCARY HAHAHA OK BYE PPL I HAVE TO MUG FOR REAL -------------------------------- Literature paper today. My brain is now dry and crumpled because I tried so hard to squeeze out all the brain juices I have while doing the paper. Omg I nearly died I swear. I was panicking because I was nervous cos I didn't know what to write for poetry comparison at first. Luckily inspiration came after awhile. Hopefully Proof can help pull my marks up :( I think it's the first time I wrote so much for a lit paper. Lol! Overall I thought it was manageable, just that I can't say for sure that I'll pass cos lit is really unpredictable zzz.. I love the poems. I felt so upset after reading this one. It's like echoing my thoughts. But ah well lets not talk about it but appreciate this poem :) The Taxi - Amy Lowell When I go away from you The world beats dead Like a slackened drum. I call out for you against the jutted stars And shout into the ridges of the wind. Streets coming fast, One after the other, Wedge you away from me, And the lamps of the city prick my eyes So that I can no longer see your face. Why should I leave you, To wound myself upon the sharp edges of the night? ---------------------------------------- Alright. Tmr is the last day of exams for me. And also my last day to live. okay just kidding. I will die tmr because it's Math and TSD paper tmr. TWO H2 PAPERS TGT. OMFG and firstly, I suck in maths, and secondly, you have to be on form for TSD paper. Unfortunately, because it's the math paper that I'm taking first, it will totally demoralize me ttm and then I won't be motivated to do the TSD paper anymore. How smart. Sorry but I'm lousy and I get affected easily lol!!! Die lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :( Okay I have to get this right. Bye, Imma go study til my brains evaporate. whoohooo! By the end of the 2 papers tmr, you'll realize that ruishan doesnt have brains anymore. Tuesday, October 06, 2009 Hello world, I've cut my hair short! :D  Just kidding. LOL While mugging in school...  Mok went crazy. HAHAHAHAMe: mirror mirror on the wall, who's the most spastic of them all?  Mirror: you! Okay I was very high today, and mok had to tie the chun li buns for me using highlighters and pens hahaha. Symptoms of going crazy due to mugging you see. The chick that my sis and her bf got for me! It's from those prize catching machines. Hahaha they're damn pro at catching these soft toys. Two more days!!! \m/Monday, October 05, 2009 I received this email: Nothing in life is simple as it seems!
but it's a bit scary cos I'm alone at home and I'm figuring out these ghost like images. sheesh ---------------------------------------------------- How to study Lit?  Put the book on top of your head and wait for it to be installed into your brain. 2 mins later, take it down and scratch your head for 3 secs. Did it work? Absolutely! You'll do well for lit. Hallelujah!Didn't work? Then you're just lousy! :B p.s. sorry but I'm seriously DAMN sick of studying lol. ------------------------------------------------------ Have you ever noticed the dustbin outside Budget Cafe (opp TPJC)?  Take a closer look... IT'S A FREAKING PENIS!!!When our attempts to be a mugger has failed.. We...  SNAP!!!Before Econs :O  After Econs! :D   Then we started snatching the netbook to take candid shots of each other. Mok is damn pro, I admit defeat. Look at the ugly shots she took of me LOL  My turn!!! She pro. Nearly!!! She attacks! She win liao lor. She defends!!! Pro or not. This is her hidden talent. To be a paparazzi!Okay. No paper tmr! "HURRAY!!!!" But I'm still going school to discuss literature with Mok. and hopefully, do math? Whatever, I feel like sleeping now. I believe if you pray very hard, it's possible that some random god up there will happen to listen and try to help me. Right? Right. Emo para for the last time. It's really sad when you don't even know whether you've moved on or not. Although it's difficult but I'll try lor. Sounds cheesy but it's really the way it works. You're so afraid to think of him in the middle of the night. You're so afraid to look at the photos you took with him. You do so many things just to distract yourself. Yet at the end of the day, you're defeated. You lost the game. I have to admit that I still think of J. But I guess theres nothing I can do now and theres nothing I SHOULD do in fact. It's feels extremely sour. I kept this in my heart long enough, I didnt dare to say how I really felt because it was stupid (to me). To be the one to end the game yet crying after the game. But oh well, after thinking about it, whats so stupid. I'm human too. It's impossible for anything else to happen so yes ruishan please move on no matter what. Yah sounds childish but at least I know I've truly loved someone before. Rather than moving on so quickly every time and then wondering if I've ever been serious with anyone. Oh goodness. I just hope this sour feeling will go far far away very soon and leave me alone. I don't like it. At all. I hate it when adults say "you're still young la, take your time". Honestly, can't ppl fall in love when they're young? that is when love is true, isnt it? Not saying that true love doesnt exist among adults, but I don't see a reason why adults should think that the relationships that teenagers get themselves into nowadays are shallow and meaningless. Some are, but not all. I don't think the relationships that adults are in are any better please. All of us were once children. So teenagers, really, have some faith in who you love, but at the same time stay smart and know who you really want. It is important to look at the realistic side. But sometimes we should not allow the "realistic side" to dominate everything else. And that is why true love is diminishing. Not that it does not exist anymore, but we're simply avoiding it. Because we're afraid of getting ourselves hurt. -------------------------------------------------------- Great. Now I feel better. Byebye Jboy. I know you're doing fine and I just hope you won't forget me. This is the last time I shall talk about you. 忘 我没有很努力要自己去遗忘 那些和日记一起收藏的过往 孤单在思绪之中变得很漫长 想 我没有很刻意让自己不去想 那些和照片静止的模样 我学着坚强 坚强到不用学着不想 学着遗忘 还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你 还是害怕的不经意听见你的消息 然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰 当拥有已经是失去 就勇敢的放弃 还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记 还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定 然而当爱最后的出口是分离 我会这么相信 走下去 Love the lyrics. Alright. Listening to: Single Ladies - Beyonce HAHAHAHA!!! Chill v^^v Sunday, October 04, 2009 My heart was skinned alive. There's nothing I can do. And that's the hardest part. I should delete all my archives. Delete the memories. Delete every fucking thing about you. oh great. I just spent a whole day playing sparklers and chillin'.  Bow wow wow.E-CORNS is tasty. yum yum  whatever lolcheck out FB for more mid autumn pics! :D cousins are cool. Saturday, October 03, 2009 Let me show you what we did when we were at mount faber late last night. Arrow is pointing to: "Changi Airport" "Bird Park" "Little India"  I just went to mount faber after my GP exam. Yes my family is spontaneous and cool hahaha we went up there for nothing. Just see see look look, took funny vids of my dad which I will post up here soon, and played hide and seek with my mummy HAHAHA I'm so sleepy. Econs on Monday. I hope I don't get a "just pass". Celebrating mooncake fest tmr with my cousins. No need to study liao. GG Check out my FB for more of these photos! :)     I Love TSD.Even though it makes eating and sleeping optional. Thursday, October 01, 2009 Well I held you like a lover: Happy hands And your elbow in the appropriate place. And we ignored our others: Happy plans With a delicate look upon your face. Our bodies moved and hardened: Hurting parts of your garden With no room for a pardon In a place Where no one knows What we have done. Do you cum? Together ever with him? And is he dark enough? Enough to see your light? And do you brush your teeth before you kiss? Do you miss my smell? And is he bold enough to take you on? Do you feel like you belong? And does he drive you wild? Or just mildly free? What about me? Well you held me like a lover: Sweaty hands And my foot in the appropriate place. And we use cushions to cover: Happy glands In the mild issue of our disgrace. Our minds pressed and guarded: While our flesh disregarded The lack of space For the light-hearted In the boom That beats our drum. Well I know I make you cry And I know sometimes you wanna die But do you really feel alive Without me? If so: be free. If not: leave him for me. Before one of us has accidental babies. For We are in love. Do you cum? Together ever with him? And is he dark enough? Enough to see your light? And do you brush your teeth before you kiss? Do you miss my smell? Is he bold enough to take you on? Do you feel like you belong? And does he drive you wild? Or just mildly free? What about me? What about me? What about...? |
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