My thoughts you can't decode

I think I need to clone myself tmr.
Or maybe set up some teleporting system in school from bbox to studio.

everything incomplete...........

makes me incomplete.

suckerzzzzzz

Ha...

Suryadi, let's be crazy.

[More pics on FB]
Dance from 9am - 4pm today! Tiring, as usual :) But I really love the company of the people, funny toots hahahaha

Marcus and JuZhong doing their ending stunt hahaha :) marcus strong eh?

THEN!!! TRUMPET SECTION GATHERING!!!

Woah I miss them to bitsssss~ We caught up a lot, talked for super long, and it's so heart warming to see that we still feel so comfortable around each other talking nonsense. SUPER funny to hear Brandon's stories! Forever a joker luh he. And miraculously, GLENN CAME!!! :D
The gathering was shiok luh, I want to meet them soon again please!

About 2 more weeks and I'm free from fucking packed schedules, whooohooo! Kinda worried about TSD only. zzz hate exams.

My eyelids are tearing apart!!!

Okay this picture is not very accurate but it's actually very red, swollen, wrinkled and PAINFUL!!! I don't know what happened but after rubbing the crazy make-up off, my eyelids have been hurting ttm! :'(

HURRAY!!! finally all the tsd showcases are over :)
That marks the end of the JC 1 Year. And I'm dreading to move on to JC 2. I can already imagine the workload and stress piling up already. Okay let's not be pessimistic hahaha

Alright! pictures (more on FB!) I love my new camera!!!

Alright since drama is over (for now)
it's time for dance! :D
Performance at RP for MDC and Devol, and Sydney trip! :)
RuiShan, Keeeeep going!!!

Actually, up til now I still don't know if I made the right choice by doing acting.
Because.. I don't LOVEEEE acting.
You see, I just thought it'll be easier than movement in DS. Moreover, next year is gonna be hectic for me and I doubt I can cope with DS.
Ah well but I've already made this decision, so let's just move on.
(I really gotta convince myself that acting is the right choice)
Ugh mono and duo... A LEVELS, YOU SERIOUSLY SUCK TTM!!! >:(
I shall not let you destroy my passion for drama!

Okay enough of ruishan's nonsense.
Take care ppl, because I'm falling sick LOL

I Love TSD.
I Love JOJ.

Parents Nite was a success! :)

Showcase for friends tmr, all hail TSD 09! :)

p/s: I'm seriously damn tired! Reaching home in the morning, go school also in the morning. So cool right. UGHHHHHHH!!! -.- those who're complaining about not having a life, shut up, really. lol v^^v

THE PREDATOR HAIR DIDN'T WORK.
THE CURLY BARELY LASTED FOR AN HOUR! -.-
Wasted my mummy's effort!!! :(

ANYWAY..........

I've decided on
ACTING!!!!!!
Duo partner... SURYADI!!! :D

hahahaha seriously susu and I quite fated.
PW same group, TSD same group, IS same, duo partner.
Wah... hopefully I don't become as blur and lame as him at the end of next year.
I believe susu and I can make great working partners after working with each other so damn many times! :) Hurray. DS shut up and die now la lol.

Ok I can't wait for school to end. It's wasting A LOT of my time.

My MDC hip hoppers are improving so much, I'm damn happy :D Instead, I feel that I need to buck up to match them!!! omg ruishan you're damn loser hahahaha. Yay MDC 4 minutes ftw! Hmm, suddenly dance seems so much more fun when shaotong is around. She is really one sunshine to me la haha. Win liao lor, go Bali then skip school for one week! Good life right lol!

Alright, a lot of dancing tmr. Shall rest early! So tired x.x

Do not freak out..

Not for the faint-hearted...

Be prepared...

Boooooo! I'm a predator muahahaha

Okay LAME.

Plaited my hair so that my hair will be curly tmr. Fyi, I'm deciding whether to perm my hair or not. The whole head. Lol. Hallelujah I think I'm mad.

Bugis with Mokky today. omg I got so many things to buy leh. Mok bought her shoes. Damn cheap, so shiok.

Headed to esplanade's library to do GP and find plays for IS/group pieces. Camwhored (more on fb), then went to meet the GP group :)

School tmr, ugh sian :(

Lessons til 3pm.
Dance at 1.30pm.
TSD full dress rehearsal at 3pm.
Devol dance prac at 7.30pm.

Hurhur so fun so fun so fun

so tiring

but so fun

Finally. A break from all the physical training.
Didn't go for devol's prac and MDC's prac.
I'm feeling so fucking tired.
My tailbone is still hurting. Ouch. I'm walking like a penguin.
Ytd's JOJ piece was cool. We adapted to the changes fast enough.

I'm seriously damn glad eugene existed.
He's drilling the rest now and I really hope he doesnt fall sick like me.
Because if he does, I won't have anyone to help me anymore!!!
Damn glad damn glad super glad.

Ah. It's nice to know good people.

So many many good people around me.
(sorry suddenly I'm feeling extremely grateful)

p/s: Oh i watched 2012 last night after the class bbq. It's really good :)

TIRED BUT HAPPY

RESULTS RELEASED TMR

CLASS BBQ TMR

FUN TO REHEARSE JOJ NOW

TIRED

TIRED

TIRED

BUT HAPPY

We've only got 4 minutes to ~~save the world~~ save ourselves.

Okay I'm gonna sound very pessimistic now.

1. TSD A Level Grouping: Me, Hamid, Melissa, Suryadi, Wen Zhen. I'm fine with my group, really. But I'm still worried. Wondering how everything will turn out. Learning from NSA... being too peaceful isn't that good either LOL.

2. I think Miss Norzian is encouraging me to do DS. And I'm damn scared because I know I'm gonna screw it so badly it's gonna be like another dance piece.

3. RP rehearsal is two days away. I'm going crazy. My legs are breaking, I swear.

4. Devol's item is progressing. We're trying. But time isn't assisting us.

5. Lessons are a waste of time. They're taking up my energy and time. Really hate doing things that are totally meaningless.

6. I need a fucking long break after this whole shit thing. (although I know I still have TSD etc.. hopefully not as hectic as now. It's currently killing me)

Luckily...

1. Daddy bought us a new Lumix camera :)

2. Eugene is in MDC. I'm so glad that he existed seriously. Or I would probably have died trying to do everything myself. It's nuts.

3. MDC members are improving alot. I love them to bits.

4. I have my boo and mok with me to cheer me on :D love them to bits also.

5. My mum and sister accompanied me to eat maggee noodles just now. Haven't talked to them for quite awhile already. I only see them for about 1-2 hours a day now :( I barely see daddy.

6. Belle is cute enough to make me smile.

Alright ruishan, smile at the happy things in life and stop complaining!

Bye bye Design. (Yes I know my drawing sucks lol stop looking at that ^ picture)
Acting or DS? Argh...

Just got my TSD A lvl grouping. Actually I would say it's better than I expected. Just that Boo isn't in the same group as me :(

Today was purely insane. I thought I could take a short break by ponning sch in the morning. But afternoon onwards itself was crazy enough. I'm glad I didn't go to school, really.

Things hasn't been going very well for me recently.
Not all, but majority. Or maybe I'm just sensitive.
I don't really know which direction I'm heading and I swear I'm not being emo now.

I really have no time.
If I can, I'd work 24 hours a day, like yah, A DAY.
BUT I NEED TO SLEEP!!! I WILL DIE, I REALLY WILL!!! :'(

Sigh. And I'm really afraid I can't balance my stuff well enough.
And I don't wanna be a "hard to handle" member in my TSD A lvl group. I really don't want to fall into that category.

Right now, I'm really rocketing here and there, going to the ends of Singapore. I need a car badly. I need to drive!!! From the central, to the east, to the west, to the central-west, to the central. Wtf.
Damn tiring 0.0

I just hope that all these are worth it.

p/s: It's not easy to be close to me, to be my good friend/family/boyfriend. It's even more tiring. In fact, I feel sorry for them to be close to me. Sorry.

Physical Theatre. Modern Dance. Hip hop.
Try switching here and there.
You'd die. Very very badly.
Just like how I did.

Hohohoho good luck ruishan, you're stuck so badly you gotta work a lot harder! :) jiayou!

So many things to do, yet so little time.
Shingz.

All the way - Celine Dion & Frank Sinatra

When somebody loves you
it's no good unless he loves you all the way
Happy to be near you
When you need someone to cheer you all the way

Taller than the tallest tree is
That's how it's got to feel
Deeper than deep blue sea is
That's how deep it goes if it's real

When somebody needs you
it's no good unless he needs you all the way
Through the good or lean years
And for all the in-between years come what may

Who knows where the road will lead us
Only a fool would say
But if you'll let me love you
It's for sure I'm gonna love you all the way

So if you let me love you
It's for sure I'm gonna love you all the way

Speechless.

Okay retarded pictures!!! :D I LOOK VERY HORRIBLE BECAUSE I JUST CAME OUT FROM THE SHOWER AND WAS FORCED TO TAKE THESE PHOTOS TO SHOW OFF OUR BEDROOM MUSHROOM SLIPPERS

Heh pardon me for my unglam-ness and ugly face. But I really love being like that! heh.. ^_^

Hectic day! Dance in the morning, very few people came :( But theres alot of progress for those who came!!! :D
Juzhong and Eugene took me to Miss N's place after that cos I'm a tampines idiot.
Oooo yummy lunch! Watched a bit of Departures, cos I had to rush off for dance at amkss. I think Departures is really a nice show, just that we werent in the right atmosphere and mood. LOL
Danced at amk (DAMN TIRED ALREADY) then was bored, so headed back to tamp to find them! :D Hahaha yes travelling here and there rocks UGHHHH tell me about it.
And when I got there, there were only a few survivors left~ Lol

Yay!!! :D Thank you Miss N for the lunch and take care of your health! :D

Okay I had the best Truth or Dare game tonight. The survivors played Truth or Dare using Boo's Iphone application and seriously it's damn fun!!!
Here's one of the stupid things that happened: Isaac's proposal to Shu Yi, WITH 3 UMBRELLAS!!! HAHAHA

Okay I cannot explain the jokes here and what happened cos it's not gonna be funny if I tell you like that. LOL!!! BUT IT'S SERIOUSLY DAMN FUNNY.
We headed to KFC to munch, then headed home :)

Hahaha fun fun :) I want to play it again during class bbq!!! It's gonna be so fun!!! :P

Yay I feel so happy. (lol okay whatever)

p/s: I can't stop laughing when I think of the game. I EVEN HAD TO KISS BOOBOO!!! HAHAHA

I'm so tired.

I feel so lost and useless.

Oh where is the strong rui shan!!!

I Surrender...

NOT!!!!

Suddenly I'm reminded of Ginie.
Whenever I feel very demoralized/lost/upset/angry, she'll sing to me:

天空是绵绵的糖,

就算塌下来又怎样?

Sigh Ginie in the Bottle, I Miss You like crazy!!!

ROARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrr

whatever I'm so retarded.

JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU

kthxbye Im done ranting lol v^^v

p/s: I think I need a secret ranting box. Where are you? Hurhur nvm you've never been here in the first place, maybe. just maybe.

DID YOU FREAKIN HEAR MEEEEE?????

I SAID

PEEEEDOUBLEYOU IS OVER!!!!

SUSU CAN'T WAIT TO CRUSH HIS NAME TAG HAHAHAHA look at that crushed paper ball at the bottom :p

Constipated susu HAHAHA

TP025 did well for OP! Love them :) Whoooohooooo FREEDOM.
CAN FINALLY CHIONG DANCE AND TSD NOW OMG OMG OMG

SHIOKNESSSSSS

CAN YOU FEEL THE HAPPYYYYNESSS??? :D

THIS GUY IS HILARIOUS!!!!!!!! MUST WATCH

I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING AT HIM HAHAHAHAHA SO FUNNY!!!!

What is the similarity between a Canon camera and a condom?

Both capture the moment.

What is the similarity between toys and women's breasts?

Both were initially for children but ended up being played by men.

HA HA HA

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OP OP OP OP OP OP OP OP

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ULTIMATE SIAN.

OP is postponed to Thursday because of me.
I'm so sorry TP025 :(
SIGH I MUST RECOVER BY TONIGHT!!!

Mad at Myself.

p/s: well well, I do miss your drawings. What to do? Haha.. -.- Sucha loser.
Actually I feel that the more boyfriends you have, the more you don't know what true love is. Thats for SOME cases, in case you think I'm talking about Boo hahaha. She's different, I guess she's just like those who just can't find their Mr/Mrs Right? But sometimes I admire how she can be so optimistic about love despite many bad encounters. She doesn't give up.
I hate losing the familiarity.
And it's tiring to get to know a new person all over again.
This is something very contrasting between me and my good friend Boo Boo.

Oh well.

It's good to be realistic.
But being too realistic sucks you dry.

And I'm beginning to feel it.

MUST WATCH!!! CASTRATING USING YOUR TEETH~

The violinist!!! I swear he's so cool, the moment you hear the melody coming from his violin, you'll be so mesmerized!!!

:D

I heard from my sister that he sings too! Omg he can just use to violin to be his voice la wapiang, good enough, can make people faint already. Hahaha I know there're many poweful violinist out there but I especially love this piece idk why, the conversation with the vocals just melts your heart!

Right. I'm off to sleep -.-

PLEASE PRAY THAT I'LL RECOVER BY TMR!!! :(

Sick and dying :'(
OP is nearing.. HOW!!!

Pics from e trishaw ride.

Sweet or not? xD

Happy Birthday FARMER HONG! :D

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Am still sick but nvm, I will survive.
Temperature is very unpredictable.. :/
Luckily my sister is a doctor-to-be, or my mum would've taken me to the docs saying I've h1n1 -.-

I had a very interesting dream.
But I think I should not share it here hahaha

Yesterday's melt and sofaman was... ok la. Wasn't what I expected though :( Melt was cute, thats it. I didn't get anything "wow" about it. Lol.

Look at my fellow TSD mates queuing for the free popcorn. How cute.

Sofaman.. got a bit boring because they talk too much. Okay maybe cos my temp was running high at that time so I couldn't concentrate. Heh! I swear I was suffering inside the bbox, it was freeeezing (for me) and I felt like I could faint anytime. Grrr. Hate fever.

Saw 4/4's class drama on youtube and realized how much I've learnt in this year. I'm really happy. We had so much fun then hahaha there were some scenes that were damn retarded XD

Currently still lying on my bed wrapping myself up with layers of blankets and jackets.

zzzz
OP
I&R
I Surrender
4 Minutes
JOJ

win liao.

"What are you waiting for?"

"What do you want?"

I am feeling extremely sick now.
Woke up this morning and dragged myself outta bed even though I was already late.
JOJ rehearsal, and then lunch at Manpuku with Boo and Mok :)
Headed back to school for dance prac.
Woah my throat was burning, my lips were tearing, brains exploding, nose was running, body was aching = I WAS SUFFERING LAH LOL
I hate it cos it hurts like mad when you cough.
Felt like there was internal bleeding or something. (ok i dont know how internal bleeding feels like lol lame)
Luckily it's dance. Imagine if I were have to go back to school for PW or sth, I'd just die on the spot and I wouldnt be blogging here already.

HAIYAH anyway, my family celebrated my dad's birthday at Illuma. It's gorgeous (sorry I sua ku, now then realize this beauty)!
Had dinner at Manhattan Fish Market and I swear the food is 10000000 times better than fish and co. It's worth the price, like totally. It made me eat mussels. See the power? Yes? Good. Then try it man!

Shopped around.. and yes of course something must be bought. Lol. My sister and I got a pair of home slippers each. It's super cute. XQ has got the pictures :) Upload em someday.

Stood by the roadside and watched the ultimate bungee jump. I swear it's damn scary! I don't dare to try it already!!! :( It's so fucked up it's insane.

Ok guess what. Best part. We sat trishaws after that =.= from clarke quay to chinatown then back again. Hahaha very fun! I really love riding them :D The old trishaw men damn strong!!! Admire them. My trishaw rider is already 50 yrs old and he could still freaking ride 3 people up a slope!!! How the hell can. Seriously... speechless.

Had tau huey after that at Rochor. Yummy :p

Alright I gotta sleep already. Apologies for sucky post because I'm seriously dying.
Byebye I feel like I'm melting inside or something.

Currently racing with time.

SIGH

TSD IS3 designing work is making me super frustrated. I haven't started on anything. F!
PW is getting on my nerves as well. I seriously can't wait for it to be over.

I need a long break :'(

p/s: best reward for all these hard work is for MDC to do well in both Operation Smile and Sydney Trip.

I'm saying this from deep deep deeep deeeeeeeeeep down in my heart:

I hate PW.

It's hindering my life so badly!!! UGH!!!
I've got so many other things to handle and this RETARDED PROJECT just have to be in my way and point is:
IT ISN'T EVEN MEANINGFUL!!! (except for the bonding with my PW mates)
We merely learn to bullshit, bullshit AND bullshit.

What is the point of doing all these crap?
Honestly, ARE YOU SURE IT IS RELEVANT TO LIFE?

Fuck! Relevant my foot!
So what if I know that they're many depressed people now?
I can't fucking transform into some god-like holy saviour!
So what if I know that the world is dying and we desperately need to go green?
I can't fucking make a change on my own!
So what if I know that I can come out with terrific ideas to save the world?
I can't fucking implement it!

UGH COME ON. YOU GUYS JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT OTHER SHIT YOU CAN THROW TO US RIGHT? SO JUST BOMB US A RANDOM SUBJECT CALLED PROJECT WORK? OH WOW IT'S SO FUN IT TEACHES ME HOW TO WORK AS A TEAM AND KNOW ABOUT THE WORLD.

OH SHINGZ, YOU RETARDS!!!

Why not come out with a subject called, "Your Own Subject" where you can pick whichever topic you want to do or like. Like maybe I can research on Dance or sth? And melody can research on Fashion? I MEAN COME ON, LET US DO SOMETHING THAT WE LOVE! (don't tell me "Go poly la!" YES I KNOW IDIOTS WILL MENTION THIS BUT CANT THEY SET ASIDE JUST 1 SUBJECT REGARDING OUR OWN INTEREST FOR THE JC KIDS?)

What EMERGENCY, CONSERVATION? BULLSHIT!

Will our ideas ever be used?

NO! How silly!

See? Since you don't trust out SILLY brains, then don't even create this shitty subject can or not!!!!

ARGHHHHHHHHHHH

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okay. PW rehearsal tmr =.=
Ciao ppl.
GG. 11 Nov. Good luck to TP025 I pray very very hard.

We're all working so hard for something we don't know.

It's been quite some time since I uploaded pics here.
This was taken by Miss Young, after e dance photoshoot by Val, Ruth, Clarice and I :) Can't wait to see the photos!!! I seriously look so bamboofied here.

This is Devolusion Reunion!!! HAHAHA the day we went to support xiaomarc and eugene.

Can you believe it, xiaomarc is the tallest now! Lol!
Ah well well, A lvl chinese paper tmr, good luck to those taking the paper! :D
OP exam is nearing, AHHHHH *runs amok*

Yes it's quite obvious that I'm Rui Shan and I hate sweets.
Very random but please rmb not to offer me sweets. Ty.

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