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Time Flies

2011-09-26T16:57:00.002+08:00

It been months since I last posted an entry. I happened to browse through my past entries a couple of mins ago and I realized how depressed I was. I'm glad I'm over it and stronger this time. It's been tough but I believe things will get better.

Can't wait for 2012. I can start studying, start doing what I want in life, start making my dreams come true, start fighting. This year has been pretty nice to me. I'm rather relaxed because it's all just about working & playing. I'm glad I'm not in the office. I swear. I'd never ever want to work in a god damn office. Sometimes I just don't understand how people can sit in front of the computer for the entire day, and they can tolerate that kind of environment for YEARS. And come on, everyone's PRIME TIME is like in their 20s, I wouldn't wanna waste it on something meaningless :( Not saying that all office jobs are meaningless. It is easy money and it's really good as a temporary job especially when you need $$$ to survive, but I really don't think we should just type documents and letters and think of how to not make your boss angry for the rest of our life. I mean, WORKING has to be much more than that right??? We're talking about -REST OF YOUR LIFE- here. I know some may say, I can earn the money now and then enjoy later. Yes, but isn't the point of PRIME TIME the dreams that you wanna achieve in life? Not money! I know, it is nonsensical to talk about dreams here in Singapore. What dreams. People hear that and they just roll their eyes at you and say you're dumb and impractical. Still, I want to stick to that and believe that things like passion and faith exists. I don't want to waste my youth by doing something that I will never ever find any meaning in doing it.

If I had all the power in the world, I would destroy money and transform the entire world back into how it was maybe 1000 years ago.

YOU GOTTA COME FOR DANCE CLASSES @ Kudoz Apex!

2011-06-14T01:34:00.001+08:00

Mon 7.30pm - Girls Hip Hop by Cat Yeo (ongoing)
Tues 7.30pm - Beginners' Hip Hop by Alyssa Tan Rui Shan (starting 26 Jul)
Thur 7.30pm - Dance Fit by Cat Yeo (ongoing)
Fri 7.30pm - Dance Fit by Alyssa Tan Rui Shan (starting 1 Jul)

Get outta my head

2011-04-07T16:04:00.002+08:00

I am very very very bored at work now. There are many things on my mind lately. If only there is a delete button in our system then I could just conveniently throw all dumb thoughts away. Dont laugh but I really am becoming more dumb. Girls are always weak at heart. Glad I have someone to constantly remind me that I deserve better. But honestly, I don't know if I'll regret. I hope I don't. So I pray that eventually IF I manage to find another guy, he'd better make this whole shit journey worth it. It wasnt an easy week for me. I am having so much trouble trying to forget you. But I know I can. I have to. I don't know what I want. Everything is in a mess. I feel so horrible :( I just hope they will seriously respect my decision and stop nagging at me because it really irritates the hell outta me. Omg danger zone, im sounding like a rebellious kid lol. Anyway, right now i just hope i can get into a university and live my happy life. Geez. Pray hard someone calls me for interview soon. And hopefully after get accepted of course. Also, I wanna go Taiwan before I enter uni (that is if I manage to get into a uni LOL). I NEED DISTRACTIONS. I am so sick and tired of whatever is happening now. But at the same time... I am secretly happy. Idk why. Actually... there are many who care for me. I think I was the one who screwed up. What the shit am I thinking? ok nvm. Am I regretting? No no no im not. Im not.

Never

2011-03-23T23:09:00.002+08:00

Will never ever trust someone so much again

New mission in life. Live for myself. Stay single and I will never get hurt.

OMG

2011-03-20T23:24:00.002+08:00

THIS WAS THE GUY I WAS TALKING ABOUT! I saw him breakdancing outside Oschool! FUCKING HANDSOME AND OMG, HE'S A LAW GRADUATE? Win liao lor.

Gulps. Too handsome! (I secretly think he's very egoistic because his qualities are like damn wtf insane)

I wish you well

2011-03-13T23:40:00.003+08:00

You're enlisting tomorrow. Take care and all the best.

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It's not good when a guy treats you too well.

Girls are weak like that.

Maybe it's just me.

If only we're all as pretty and simple as Belle

2011-03-06T23:15:00.003+08:00

She's so cute in this pic right! credits to rQ :)

Me at grandma's house looking like Hagrid.

I have so many things on my wishlist now.

Of course one of the things include getting into NUS/NTU. Sigh.. chances are low and all I can do now is worry and pray so damn hard. Hate that feeling. If I can't get in, I have no $ for overseas/private, so I'd probably go into NIE (arts).

Life sucks now. I'm pretty demoralized because I just realized my mum is really not very satisfied with me.

I really DO NOT like how things are happening now. Well I wouldn't include the results part in this because I guess I just got what I deserve. But other than results, everything else is messed up.

People are also saying that I'm getting thinner (again). Why the fuck is this happening??? I keep wanting to get fat and being TOO skinny is fugly ttm. I'm so annoyed by the fact that I can't do anything to get fatter. FRUSTRATING. I don't want to look like this you know:

:'( NOOOOO WAYYYYY!!!

Oh btw guys, Im gonna dye my hair. Does this look good?

Post your comments on the tagboard please! Thanks :)

RESULTS

2011-03-05T01:02:00.002+08:00

GP: C

LIT: A

THEATRE: B

ECONS: C

MATH: D

PW: A

Better than expected. But don't know where to go also. Lol..

Anyway I bought the OPI Shatter! WHOOTS. Ultra LOVEEEE

Heard from Sum that MDC and TSD are doing a collaboration for a production/musical. Omg I can't wait I want to be part of it!!!

Anybody has any idea which courses I am eligible or at least try for? Or anything that suits? Please tag ok thanks!

Back to Reality

2011-03-04T00:01:00.002+08:00

Downhill

Everything.

A Lvl results tmr

will it continue going down

or will it be a rise from a downhill

Things havent been kind to me lately

Please just help me this time and give me all the courage I need

cos I know it's not gonna be easy

他不爱我

2011-02-28T22:42:00.000+08:00

Jigsaw-Inspired Dolls

2011-02-26T17:51:00.002+08:00

"I want to play a game with you."

Gliding around, freaking people out!

Boo.

Yay! Am thankful that shaotong is willing to do this with me :) we sure had fun scaring people and camwhoring! Now just hope my lil juniors will do their best for the upcoming SYF! The choreo is just so good! (Y) So with hardworking dancers + zai choreo, PERFECT! :D

All the best MDC!

Right. Now time to get serious with my life. Results will be out next friday.

Lets say if...

Case 1: Fail until CMI. Confirm cant squeeze into any Uni, whether local or private.

- quickly dash out of school and DON'T EVER bump into any friends/teachers. even if you do, just say "i gtg bye!!!" and RUNNNN

- If relatives/friends ask, act as you are super ok with it, like you expected it. Be upset, but don't become too emo and cry like a baby in front of others.

- Mrs Koh will be sarcastic. Ignore her and give her this _|_

- Go home, quietly sneak into your bed and hide under your blanket and cry like a mad dog.

- Future plans? KNN GO JUMP DOWN A RIVER.

just kidding. LOL. Work? No plans. Ah fuck, whatever. LOL

Case 2: No As. Maybe can get into Uni, but not good course.

- Smile and be contented. Because it's not like I worked effing hard for it.

- You will hear others say "shit.. only 1 A... fuck". Smile at them, and also give them _|_

- Go home and quickly do a last minute course research.

Case 3: SIBEI GOOD RESULTS = AT LEAST 2 As (Not likely but I will just comfort myself by putting this possibility in)

- SCREAM

- Be sensitive, dont be an asshole and let ppl give you _|_

- Go thank those who've helped you

- Be so so so so so fucking insane

K............

after all that rubbish, i feel more mentally prepared. I just hope I wouldn't be too affected by my results. Must. Be. A. Strong. Girl.

I know it's not going to be good but heck it, it's something I chose to face in the first place so do not whine.

BLESS ME \m/

More of CNY!

2011-02-10T19:21:00.003+08:00

These are pics from day 2 of CNY! :D Had this animal print dress with a head band on, looking like some tribal kid! Sis was the exact opposite, she was super kawaii in her fairy dust mini skirt and a huge bun on top of her head!

Acting cute ahahaha

My ultra cute chubby daddee :p

With my pretty mummy! No idea why my hair looks so brown. Lol

Acting innocent. Obviously failed LOL

Wei and I foolin around :P

Mum and I on our way to the car :) Love my mum's cheongsams.

A pic with Gma! ^_^

Ah, my favourite. COUSINS!!! Love all of them. Fabulous people.

FAMILY!!!! Belle looks so cute. Lotsa love.

I was running a fever on the second day of CNY, that explains my cui face ok! Have already recovered ;)

Grandpa just passed away on day 3 of CNY, that explains my absence from everything else the past week.

It has been a heartbreaking-tired-sleepy-sick-sian week, but am looking forward to the coming week because I'm going crabbing with my dearest mdc mates, and then steamboat with my sweetheart, and then vday! I'm also very excited to see my new MDC juniors, and really hoping they will do well for SYF. Theres also A lvl results omfg :( Alright! I'd better get myself in the race again! Btw I heard theres another Singapore JYP audition in sept/dec, and the auditioning process is entirely different! I'm gonna join muahahaha (before I get old).

Alrightzzzz im off!

Time is slippin' away

2011-02-09T21:50:00.002+08:00

This post is for Eugene Koh only! :)

This boy here will be enlisting in 14 March and I really don't like the thought of it :(

It's so difficult to 'cherish' our time together right now because so many things happened lately on my side, days of CNY is keeping everyone busy, my office job takes up the whole day, his job takes up his WHOLE WHOLE DAY (like from morning to night)...
Missing him is no longer 'new' to me, but why can't I get used to it? I still feel upset and troubled over how we can actually make just ONE DAY free to just RELAX and NOT DO ANYTHING AT ALL, together. I really miss the times when we just go to the studio to just dance rubbish, or even sit at starbucks and talk cock the whole day, or maybe even just watch some movies at home. Sigh.
I miss hearing him laugh like an oxymoron, I miss his lame jokes, I miss hearing myself laugh so hard at his stupid jokes, I miss seeing him eat like a pig, I miss kicking his stomach like a crazy monkey, I miss squeezing his pimples, I miss holding his hand, I miss... ugh enough. I miss being with him. I miss him badly.
I hope I can cope fine with him going into army and being stolen from me for 5 full days :(

Sweetheart, please just keep yourself safe in the army. Don't be a stupid donkey and overexert yourself.

Miss you so much.

Happy CNY 2011!!!

2011-02-04T00:46:00.002+08:00

Although I'm ill... I think CNY still rocks!!! :D

Weak like that

2011-02-01T15:49:00.001+08:00

CNY mooooood

2011-01-28T15:08:00.002+08:00

Hello guys I'm already in my CNY mood and I've skipped work twice this week! Oh no :p

Thought of the money flying away makes me ultra sian, but!!!!

LOOK AT MY PRETTY NAILS MUAHAHAHAHA

Went to do Manicure last night with my sis and mum! It's SUPER near my house, at kim keat link block 194! The price is mad cheap and there's only one girl who's doing nails there, called Annie. She's from Vietnam and she's damn pro.

Btw my nails look a bit brown there cos of the lighting but it's actually dark purple with light purple flowers! :)

Mine has 4 fingers with acrylic extensions (I dont know the manicure terms so pardon me lol) and all added gel top coat to make it last longer. And it's only freaking $27 for mine!!! -.- It can last me about 1 month okay!!! I think other shop are selling at maybe $40 right? I'm not sure but if I'm wrong please tell me :p

Okay my mum just called me, I swear this Annie girl is ULTRA good. Ok basically last night my mum and sis did both mani and pedi, and I only did manicure, total charge is $102. We thought it was quite cheap already considering the extensions and designs she did for us. Then guess what? She called my sister back and told her that she overcharged us last night! Oh.My.God. Somemore asked us to go back and take back the 'change'. LOL! HONEST, CHEAP, ZAI SKILLS. I seriously like her a lot. I'm going to go over now to do my pedicure and let her keep the 'change' if she's free. This kind really worth supporting. Ppl please go down! Mad cheap, good service, good nails.

TTYL PPL I'M OFF!

Stone

2011-01-22T16:26:00.002+08:00

Hate it when I have nothing to do. I feel extremely useless and demoralized and I will start blaming myself for being so lousy.

I can totally visualize myself like this:

Have nothing to do, just blob blob around. Geez I wonder if animals get bored living. Sigh.

I need new opportunities, new people, new environment, new challenge. Everything now is just BORING!!! I'm sure the penguin knows EXACTLY how I feel. As if no matter how tough things get, I just don't feel affected nor challenged.

There's this video audition thing for some Star Search in Korea going on. Then again I don't know what I want. It's FRUSTRATING!!! Should I work something out? Or should I just stop doing all these things? I'm like stuck on the fence and I'm gonna get pricked by the barbed wires to death god dammit.

SOMEBODY SHOW ME THE LIGHT OH GOSH

Ok actually now I'm like this:

WHAT DO I DO WHAT DO I DO

I'M A LOST CHILD

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I think too much

My First Time Pubbing

2011-01-22T14:13:00.008+08:00

Went to LVs after popping at Scape.

Howchye treated this:

Sang:

Played sadistic games:

Drink and drink:

Camwhore:

Had fun:

Thank you sweeties!

I am damn lazy to type. I would say I'm fine with pubbing but go if you're damn rich -.- lol

Haw Par Villa

2011-01-17T00:05:00.007+08:00

Went to Haw Par Villa with siyun, andrew, rq, xq and eugene today! It was pretty fun! Love the Ten Courts of Hell... but not the mosquitoes and the headache :( You guys should check this place out, it's like long forgotten eh.

Me with my friend. He's so strong he can carry me with just one arm!

In the Ten Courts of Hell. This punishment is for people who gossip. CUTTING OF TONGUES. So girls, please stop bitching. HAHAHAHA

I forgot which group of people was this punishment for, but it's surely sadistic D:

Ringing the bell for "Fu, Lu, Shou".

The front gates of Ten Courts of Hell with "Niu Tou Ma Mian".. Ox-head horse-face? Lol

This is was a random self-timer shot heh.

Eugene trying to levitate beside "Shou".

Check it out, I found my forehead competitor.

TOUCH HIS CUTE FAT BELLY!

The background looks like.. a mix of cheese and tomato sauce?

Roar. Um. Not very fierce...right.

Don't know what's going on but yeah, they're killing the animal because it's attacking me?

My sweeties!

Finally a proper shot hahaha

Jumpshot! Whoohoo! :D Can't wait for CNY!

More pics on my FB! :D

Haw par villa is a mosquito breeding area (worse than pulau ubin I'd say) -.- plus the super warm weather.. oh god it's bad. But the ten courts of hell was really cool, all the sadistic/scary ways of torture heh heh heh :P quite good to take pics actually. Just really hate the upslope!

Am still thinking of when to go for reverse bunjee. Need to get my money, guts and company ready. oh and my videographer. HAHAHA (Y)

Work is starting tmr again :( Ultra sad face x10000!

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2011-01-15T15:58:00.019+08:00

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My First Outing with SYDC!

2011-01-15T00:33:00.005+08:00

FYI, SYDC is Soka Youth Dance Crew. LOL!

We headed to PULAU UBIN last sunday afternoon. It was my second time there and the last time I went there was like.. 3 years ago? Not sure. But I would surely wanna go there again!

Warning: Only go there if you like cycling/outdoors.

Look at our row of bicycles! :D We were all so excited when we got our bikes, surely we miss our childhood days! :P

And there's this tall tall stairway which can only hold 20 people. I don't see any point in the "Max. 20 people" sign because nobody obeys it. Lol!

Our tendon bike! Is that how you call it? Lol idk but I tell ya, it'll be so much easier if you ride with your bf. ALL THE SLOPES I GUARANTEE YOU GIRLS YOU ALL SURE CUI TTM. Unless your stamina is as good as (macho) guys! Hahaha I think Eugene did most of the cycling, I just sat behind and enjoyed the ride LOL (Y) shiok! Of course your bf better be fit la, or else time to force him go gym! :p

This is my love :D

Going up slope.. I stood there and took shots of them struggling muahahaha :P see bao ge happily riding up like no kick only. Raisin and audrey struggling badly there... LOL! Alvin and his gf behind also dying! Hahaha cute max ^_^

Look at the girls! All gave up and starting pushing. Only Linda persevere all the way, you go girl! Hahaha :D I swear the slope is not funny. LOL

Another couple who gave up HAHAHA damn cute. Look at how far yvonne is staying away from the bike, she obviously does not want to help her bf to push the bike HAHAHAHA!!!

Huixian panting really hard! LOL

And yes we saw a wild boar that was really...lazy?

I love this place! I remember it was after a super long upslope... but it was worth the effort! The water is so blue, rich and calm, so mesmerizing!

I was telling them that these looked like as if there were human beings stuck underneath and they're sticking their fingers out in hope to get help. Lol!

Taken at Check Jawa, I love this place! SUPER windy and beautiful!

I look like a retard because the sun was shining into my eyes :(

Love this jumpshot!

Enjoyed myself so much, thanks SYDC! :)

Going for movie tomorrow night with my family and Hapa Villa (sp?) on Sunday with my cousins, hope it's gonna be fun! :D It's just amazing to have a family like this, my best gift in life!

Been going for open classes and my popping course at oschool. I really hope I can use this time to do what I really love. When August arrives, (if I manage to squeeze into a uni), the painful life starts again with mundane routines. And I'll probably never be able to be so active in dance again. Sigh. This is the only thing I hate about Singapore. Why is it that time is so tight in this country? I totally feel like I'm just squeezing my way through a big crowd (not literally please) my whole life and never being able to see the satisfying end point. Or is it just me being discontented/fussy/whiny with my own life? I really want to face this whole process with a big smile but sometimes when I think about it, I feel so empty.

Why can't life be simple enough to just let us do whatever we want to? :(

Ah enough. There isn't anything we can do. Well, if you're rich you may consider migrating. At least it lessens your suffering? But it adds on to your parents' suffering, LOL BEST. Whatever, kill yourself la ;)

All In The Name Of Money

2011-01-12T16:33:00.002+08:00

I'm suffering from boredom right now. The Boredom of Living. The Suffering of Being.

Why am I so lame.

Whatever it is, I blame Money for the leaving me in the situation like this. I could be climbing a tree at Botanic Gardens or be like catching fishes in disgusting canals right now. But because of Money, we are all becoming machines. TRAGEDY!!!

I think I'm losing myself. Oh no. I sound bipolar..

Ok I want to edit my skin. Byebye

Office

2010-12-30T16:00:00.002+08:00

This aircon room with super lots of notebooks scares the hell outta me. So damn quiet and serious... ok there are fun and noisy moments but thats like... RARE -.-"

I'm bored.

JYPE Audition!

2010-12-12T17:50:00.002+08:00

It was super crowded when I reached the Senja CC and I swear I was so close to giving up! What's the chance of getting chosen out of the thousands of people? Look.

You see that girl who turn her head back towards the camera, the one in the floral dress? Yes she sings DAMN well. I heard her cos she was in the same group as me and omg I was impressed, but not the judges. I find it a pity that she wasn't selected cos her voice really owns.

OK AS I WAS SAYING...

My confidence = NIL. I swear that feeling sucks, when you really know you want to get in but at the same time you gotta put on a front and tell everyone that "yeah just go for experience la."

-.- honestly thats bullshit, everyone who goes for that audition SURE is hoping to get selected lor. So actually I was rather disappointed that the judges didnt look impressed AT ALL after I finished my 1 minute. But nevermind! I'm alright already, although I really envy those who got in. Chance for a new life, new country, new language, new career, new hope, new challenge... etc etc..

Nvm, I heard YGE is coming next year (I'll be 19 already so chances are lower *sobs*). I'm going to join! Since I've gained a teeny weeny bit of experience from this. HAHAHA. I am not going to stop and I will keep on trying you nasty korean judges who don't smile at all! ONE DAY I SWEAR I WILL WOW YOU ALL!!! I may be a noob now but I won't be next year!

Wheeee hah! Anyone who sees any auditions like this tell me ok, I will join! :p

I cannot give you know!!! There's always this image of me sitting on the fence, thinking if I join these auditions will make me look like I'm still in my lala land trying to become a star (in chinese is FA MING XIN MENG). Well I think sitting on the fence is good, but you've got to balance hard because if you fall to either side.. you'll be either in disillusionment/self-denial (thinking you can be a star for you whole life) or you'll be so far away from your passion you may lose yourself (drowned in work). I don't think we have to make an extreme decision right now because we do have many doors open for us. The key is to never stop working hard in both ways = school/work + passion, right? Ok I don't care if you agree or not, at least that's what I think. Lol.

Well I'm not haolianing and please don't be envious hahaha but I have plenty of friends and family who have been and will be supporting me til the very end! :) Special thanks to Sis and Mum for helping me with the preparation for this audition and to Eugene for accompanying me for HOURS during the audition that day. Thank you!!! hehehe.

Results will be official on 10 Jan, and so good luck and all the best to those who've been selected! :D Jia you!

And those who wanna buy 4D! You can try 1307! HAHAHA hope this helps you get rich ;)

Btw, the judges were freaking fierce I wanted to punch the girl's face. 2 from JYP 2 from Alpha Ent. I danced+sang to Crazy in Love by Beyonce and fortunately did not get cut! Hahaha. I finished my 1 minute and yay, achieved what I aimed for (30 secs)! Some contestants were... unique. Um two of them sang and danced to Miss A's bad girl good girl.... it was... 0.0... some I couldn't tell what they were doing. Not being mean, but just saying some things I saw that day okay! Alot of contestants sang korean songs, I wonder if they even know what they singing cos it was rather emotionless.. or like imitated. Some sang english songs and those I heard were not bad! Oh yes, please those of you who wanna audition the next time round, MUST MAKE UP OKAY!!! Or else really cui. Lol

Geez, can't wait for the next round! Hwaiting!

Alright guys, next post on Grandma's birthday celebration! See ya :D

VIVA GLAM 2010

2010-12-08T01:02:00.002+08:00

Hello hello! Alright I just came back after prom hehehe

Alright before I jump into prom pics I'll first continue with more pictures of the cousin's outing! :)

SO NOW. Prom pics! I liked the whole thing, thought it was good effort and really appreciate it! The ballroom was beautiful and games were really fun! hahaha love being with my Table 12!

Melody, Boo and Kevin came over to do hair and makeup! Hahaha look at how unglam mel is!

Look at the two "camera shy" girls..

DONE! :D MY PRETTY GIRLS + HANDSOME GUY hahaha

Cabbed down... and meanwhile CAMWHORE! :p

Don't know why the colour of this pic is so weird LOL

Reached Raffles Convention Centre, and tadah~ EUGENE! :) Been through tough times with him and we're like each other's support pillar. We scream/shout/agitate/torture each other, because we're both leos and we work this way. So optimistic and full of life... sometimes when I'm really down, he is just like my ray of light right there waiting to be seen. (sounds cliche) but yeah, he is really important to me :)

I love this photo :D

She looks so cheeky here!

Melissa in her barbie pink dress! ^_^ Oh my her Barney song was super cute and creative!

The Three Musketeers hahaha

LADIES! All so gorgeous.. btw I feel so tiny!

Xian Niang and Blackie! :P hahaha

Zahidah, my lit rep! :)

Sharon, super sweet and gentle girl! TWIN OF GIRAFFE GOD!

FARMER!!!! :D Omg I love her dress you can't imagine how beautiful it is! It looks ALOT ALOT better real life btw, and she's so pretty!!!

Reuben! Hahaha the vulgar rude boy :P I sabo-ed him til his face turn red like baboon's butt.

Table 12 (majority)!

Lighting effects were ultra cool, I was impressed!

Look at little sum's amazed expression.

Just a picture of the first dish!

Presenting...

the HOTTEST HUNK!

Eugene and Sum (aka frog aka pig aka fatty aka... etc the list doesnt stop). Sum is the best dance teacher IC EVER. EVER EVER EVER. Love him max.

Doing the so called cat walk~ hahaha my partner M2 Hafiz! He's really funny and sporting! :D Glad to have him as my partner!

Up on stage as M2 and F2 Prom king and queen nominee! Haha the suspense and kanchiongness was quite a good experience! :)

Out of all the missions of singing, dancing etc.... I had to advertise a toilet roll -.- ok honestly I felt that this mission was quite hard because you gotta control the audience yourself and it's super not easy can! Plus everyone was giving you death glares and 'huh' faces.. omg and you're like there on stage talking about a toilet roll! Haha fun fun, it'll be good if they do games like this to everyone, like by random, then maybe it'll get more exciting!!!

Introducing myself... HAHAHA I sounded retarded saying "I like dance" :/

WINY! :D She's so booby right. Hahaha took this in the toilet. Ignore that F2 tag LOL

Ms Delphine Tan!!!!!!!!!!!! BEST ECONS TEACHER YOU CAN EVER GET! I love her, she's really hardworking and she does her best for her students. Very helpful, thoughtful and encouraging. Thank you Ms Tan! :) I hope to have good complexion good figure like you even after becoming a mother, SO ENVIOUS DAMMIT!

Mr Mak!!! Whee super cute! Passionate about maths, like REALLY crazy. He enjoys what he does, thats teaching maths, and I really envy/admire him for being able to do what he loves.

Then we have VP ANG! Haha honestly I used to find him plain and boring because he is always so solemn as if the world will end tomorrow. But after the Red Riding Hood performance, I realized he's SUPER on, SUPER game, SUPER sporting. DAMN FUN. I LIKE. Not just an -oh so simple- VP! ;) Really confident that he can bring TPJC to achieve greater success!

Mr Emen Low. Needless to say, inspiring teacher. I bet everyone in TPJC admires and loves him because he really is THAT good :) Thank you Mr Low for coming into "not so smart" schools like TPJC to help :D

Teanna! Lit classmate :D Giggly and bubbly hahaha

Reuben again, this time after that embarrassment. HAHAHA

Tricia, lit classmate too! Very intelligent girl! ^_^

Audrey yao, got to know her through Melody. Very sociable and energetic!

Foolin around~

Alina, Shermaine and Audrey! :D

Azri! Glad to have performed with him before. Amazing experience :) Great beatboxer! Draws well too!!!

With dancers! PROM QUEEN NATALIE BESIDE ME! :P

K sorry but I must mention the hottie again.... So charming right HAHAHA

DANCERS! MY LOVE!!!

Imitating the poster LOL

Nicholas, SUPER FAST LEARNER IN DANCE! Talented too! :) Hope he can accompany me to more dance classes HAHAHA

ISAAC.... LONG TIME NO SEE!!!!!!!

With Nisa!!! :D MY FELLOW LEO!!!!

BEN! The one who wouldnt stop calling for Wendy Moo.

And finally to end off with my two lovely girls :) You girls are so beautiful! Both of you are the kindest and most understanding girls, sometimes I find myself so blessed to be your friend. Those times when I've cried and whined and flared up, you guys never left me alone and was always there to be my happy pills. Never ever want to lose you two in my life :) Best friends forever! :D MUACKSXZXX

GOSH IM SO GOD DAMN FREAKING TIRED ALREADY BYEBYE I'M OFF TO SLEEP

IF I CONTINUE LOOKING AT THE SCREEN I THINK MY EYES WILL BLEED LOL

Good Life

2010-12-06T22:43:00.003+08:00

YEAH LIFE'S GOOD! \m/

Went out with my cousins yesterday to celebrate Shirleen's birthday! :D Karaoke at my cousin's work place (free mah, shiok right :p), and had our dinner at yuki yaki!

Omg Yuki Yaki was super good! Buffet, I think it's about $25 per person. I was totally attracted to the free flow of salmon sashimi cos I've been craving for it since donkey years. The wined beef and lamb chop was yummy too!

Almost done! Satisfying (Y)

Then here comes the ice cream part! So basically we shifted table to what I call the "cold table" to make our own ice cream! It's damn fun! Ok these pictures are quite gross so you may not believe me HAHAHA more pretty pics with Shi Rui and Shirleen. Sis and I forgot to bring our camera :p

Look at how much ice cream we had. Luckily nobody vomitted/lao sai. Cos shi zheng had that experience, right zheng? HAHAHAHA

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CAUGHT RAPUNZEL 3D AT NEX TODAY!

I swear she's so chio I'm so jealous! Ok and the guy is so cute also!!! perfect match.

The story is really sweet and funny, but I thought the stupid witch died too early and easily. I mean like, walao just fall down then die already... -.-

at least let them fight until super desperate then die la, just some shouting and dragging.. like a full climax.

But overall the songs were damn good, funny lines and there are really sweet moments! The pretty Rapunzel is just the bomb la. Chio eyes, chio hair, chio figure... what's this! Life is unfair.

AND THE CHAMELEON OMG IT'S SO DAMN CUTE I WANNA PINCH IT. If only real life chameleons were THAT cute!

Hehehe okay anyway guys it's really worth watching! Sure laugh like mad hahaha!

K tata people! I hope prom will be fun tmr! :D

BACK

2010-12-04T16:35:00.003+08:00

[K honestly I know this skin is quite gross so I promise I'll change it soon! Can some kind soul design one for me?]

A's are over, but life doesn't feel like it's any better nor easier.
Not that I'm emo now or what but honestly, I am rather disappointed with how things are happening now. Life seems so aimless now when there's nothing to do. Why are we so afraid to be doing nothing anyway? This totally reminds be of Absurd Drama. Gosh *bangs head on wall*

Anyway, talking about A levels. I wouldn't dare to predict my grades, because all I can visualize is... Cs and Ds. Now that there's nothing to do, I feel kinda forced to face all these horrifying thoughts of not getting good results and not being able to go into a uni... argh. Well I don't think I'm the only one right? Now I can just pray to whatever God that is available for decent grades, or I'll be in deep trouble because neither do I have the cash to go private uni/overseas nor go back to TPJC and retake my As because I take TSD. How sad. That means, DIE ALSO MUST ENTER A LOCAL UNI. Not that I didn't realize this earlier, but this whole idea just (finally) got into my head. Slow. Even so, I doubt I'll be even more motivated to study anyway.

Yah yah enough whining ruishan.

Sometimes I really question myself if I really am happy and if I really am that carefree and optimistic/hyper/crazy like what others think of me. I mean, looking at what I've said earlier on, I do sound... suicidal, or at least depressed. Dangerous area. I guess I should just stop thinking so much and believe that I am happy? Self-denial... wouldn't be that bad.. which brings me to the Absurd quote again, "Illusions are only illusions, but we can never do without them."

OK ENOUGH. MY BRAIN IS SO CHOKED WITH ALL THESE PHILOSOPHICAL BULLSHIT WHAT IS THIS! (sudden outburst)

I think I am suffering from.. Bipolar. It's something about extreme moods right?

Haha cool (Y)

Btw, I applied for a full-time job at Monetary Authority of Singapore (MAS) and I really hope I get it because I really need cash. I don't like having to ask my parents for money when I want to buy something. Idk but it makes me guilty? Maybe that's why I didn't mind doing lousy jobs like door to door sales. ANYWAY.. any of you have good jobs to introduce? If yes please tag k! Thanks :D

p/s: I want to go for a photoshoot. Not studio though. Any good photographers to recommend?

p/p/s: Prom is nearing! Really hope it'll be fun! Can't wait to take pics with hot babes and hunks.

p/p/p/s: May I know what does "p/s" stand for? I feel bimbotic but nvm.

2010-08-16T22:49:00.002+08:00

Although school days are beginning to suck more and more because A lvls are so fucking near (and I'm not studying hard yet, let's not talk about it), life seems to be much better and happier with friends like Melody, Shu Yi, Rachel Boo and Eugene Koh.

These people really make me look forward to school and really persevere through this crappy shitty fucked up mug to the max period. It's amazing, really. I hope I can keep these people with me together with my family for the rest of my life and lead happy lives ahead.

Hahaha speaking of which, we tried learning the Miss A's Bad Girl Good Girl dance together! Honestly, my friends all can secretly dance, all scam me! They learn really fast!!! Ah, that half an hour of -dance with best friends to break free of school work- was awesome. Felt so relaxed and energetic after that! It is always always always meaningful to dance with somebody you treasure/love.

Alright, mushy stuff aside! I shall not sound like some retarded Miss Universe wannabe and be grateful and want peace right. Ok here comes the negative/screwed up part HAHAHAHAHA

YOU KNOW HOW MUCH I FUCKING HATE HOMEWORK NOW?

BECAUSE IT FEELS LIKE THE TEACHERS JUST WANNA GET THEIR JOB DONE AND MAKE US COMPLETE LIKE 10 ESSAYS IN A WEEK WTF CAN?!

ok I may be exaggerating but considering I have 3H2 and 1H1, and all except math has lotsa essay writing.... so it IS possible! Which makes it fucking depressing.

And guess what?

WE HAVE TO FINISH THE HW OR WE GET CHASED OUT OF CLASS.

So tell me,

if we get chased out of class, ARENT WE FUCKING WASTING TIME IN SCHOOL? might as well study at home right.

And it's not like we're given reasonable amount of time to complete the essays! Write arguments no need think one issit. Think no need energy one issit. PLUS, my pen inks are finishing up like ultra fast it's so annoying!!! >:(

(yah you must be thinking: then you should just stop blogging and do your work)

My response: NABEH, lao niang machine ah? I need to rest right?!?!?!?!

-pardon me if I sound like ah lian but I really need to whine hahaha pls let me be-

AND!!!!

after we get chased out of class, we have to copy the corrections.

You tell me

FOR WHAT???

It's like adding on to our hw pile (which does not benefit us/ help us learn more).

WHAT

THE

SHIT

-honestly- if copying works, I'd be scoring like single digit for my O lvls ok.

Schools ARE training us to be photostating machines. Sorry hor not everyone's ambitious is to be that please!

DON'T try to reason out with me that we must face it/ or that I'm finding excuses ok I will really make sure you die a horrible death (you know I'm kidding right)

it's really quite tiring and it makes me hate studying more when I don't understand wtf I'm writing.

BUT!!!!

(not trying to act wise here)

I think it is only through all these crap,

I'd learn to appreciate/ treasure the people we have with us along this tough journey, and force myself to do things that I do not like/ does not go my way.

Well whether right or wrong, I guess it's always better to conclude your thoughts in an optimistic way, because not only will it make your day better, it'll make others around you happier as well.

You gotta agree?

If you don't then you really will die a horrible death LOL

2010-08-12T18:28:00.003+08:00

BORED

The cute fake bread that Melody gave me! ;)

Wind effect LOL

Ti ko peh.

Ok ciao! back to work :p

2010-08-10T22:25:00.001+08:00

MY INTERNET SUCKS.
ARGHHHHH

2010-08-01T00:58:00.002+08:00

Inception is amazing. No kidding.

My brain feels so raped now. It's tiring to watch the movie because you, like the characters, desperately try to find out which is reality. And to work on something so.. abstract... really is very difficult. I mean if this script was given to some noob director, I bet the movie would be such a waste. Christopher Nolan did a great job.
Inception is beautiful. I would wanna try it too. But probably too dangerous as well. I wonder what will my projections be. It'll be so damn interesting! Limbo sounds fun too. But it's... sadly happy. Oxymoron haha. It's great to have your own dreams and world.. but it's sad that it's not real.

Whatever. I want to hear what the scriptwriters have to say about this.

Anyway. I've cleared Econs homework together and I'm feeling very accomplished (haha). Shall finish up the rest tmr and feel even greater than this :p

GO WATCH INCEPTION PLEASE

2010-07-27T21:09:00.002+08:00

A man falls in love through his eyes.

A woman falls in love through her ears.

Life has been pretty tough! But I guess I'm surviving and will get stronger!

I WILL NEVER DIE

MUAHAHAHAHA

(suddenly so alive LOL)

Tomorrow will be another LONG TIRING DAY :( but nvm, I shall persevere! NO MORE MCs TAN RUI SHAN!!! I really like Night Study, BUT IT'S TIRING!!! :'(

(talking cock)

Okay I think the show "Born Rich" is cool. Connie is like... goddess in the show. She like always so calm and understanding. WHERE GOT PEOPLE LIKE THAT ONE?! hahaha nvm I shall aim to be like her manzzzzz. ALWAYS STRONG ALWAYS CALM ALWAYS SELFLESS (no actually if i become too selfless i may die - "ren bu wei ji tian zhu di mie"!!!!)

Uh whatever ruishan (L) Loser ttm.

K BAI PEOPLE I THINK TMR WILL BE A GOOD DAY!!!!

2010-07-19T22:02:00.002+08:00

TSD A LEVELS PICS! :D

And some iSwap photos (omg I love that app!)

Dad and Grandma :p

FREAKY D:

Sis and I :p

I think my sister looks great in my hair! :D Go perm leh!

Dad and I :p

Hahaha hilarious and freaky at the same time.

Fun day (Y) I like. Funny how many teachers think I'm sucha happy+hyper person. Lol I don't think the dancers feel that way though. They've seen my ugly side :( HAHAHAHA

Oh right. I don't feel like doing anything now. How? Let's cry.

It's sad to be a teacher because so many students are cursing you, complaining about how boring you are, and commenting on your dress sense. Sorry but I'm guilty of it. Will try not to. But it seems like teachers are the only form of entertainment we get in school. How miserable. I'm sorry but we really need to find something to talk about. Lol. Reminds me of Absurd theatre omg -.- Existentialism. Ok enough, I'm talking cock.

Hmm...

Any nice hip hop songs to intro? :D

2010-07-18T23:39:00.002+08:00

HELLO THIS POST IS FILLED WITH MY PHOTOS HAHAHAHA

NATIONAL MUSEUM OF SINGAPORE (Y) AWESOME!

MY FAVOURITE! CAI GUO - QIANG: HEAD ON

THE 99 WOLVES ARE LIFE SIZED AND LOOKS DAMN REAL. YOU GUYS SHOULD REALLY CHECK IT OUT. It has something to do with the Berlin wall and how "invisible walls are the hardest to dismantle" and how "human are so blinded..." yadayada says cai guo. It's damn cool la basically (Y)

You can totally feel the energy and the force when it hits the wall, the weight and everything omg it's beautiful I cannot stop thinking about it.

Oh and btw, he was so detailed in his work, even some of the wolves have balls. awesome right.

SACHOOM!

Dancers were damn insane. But the story was lame.

SCHOOL TOMORROW! D:

Random: I love PE. LOL!

Hope it'll be a good day tomorrow ok! ALRIGHT NO MORE MCs!!!

No more time to blog already :(

2010-07-12T21:01:00.002+08:00

HARLOWZZZ PEOPLE A LVL TSD PRACS IS OVER! :D

One of the pics taken today :) hehehe Melly rented this costume for me (the extra character) for her monologue! So lucky, dont have to talk also can wear pretty dress. I like (Y)

Another random pic taken at Melody's house, when doing our darling Booboo's present! ^_^

iSwap rocks ttm!!! hahahaha look at our faces holy mama.

Being retards. Melly own luh :p

4.5F FTW! :D

One day before actual exam... (still persevering!!!)

On that day of group exams, braiding melly's hair. SUSU KNOWS TO BRAID TOO!!!

Making up.... ;) sigh I guess I'm gonna miss making up for tsd performances.

Today's IS went fine, I was really nervous though. JustI hope I didnt go high pitch (again). I do feel relieved, but still... the thought of having to continue mugging for the next few months really spoils the -after exams- mood. Persevere ruishan, persevere. This is really the biggest challenge in my life so far, because I'm actually disciplining myself to do something I don't like -.-

The examiner asked what will I be doing after college. Hmm.. honestly, what will I be doing? I hope it's something I love~!

Alright. Mugging begins from tmr onwards. No way I can stop. I'd better get myself mentally prepared.. It's gonna be a tiring race but I will (or rather, must) make it there!

(lol shit I havent do my hw. whatever. I need to sleep ok)

2010-07-08T22:40:00.002+08:00

TSD A LEVEL PRACTICAL IS FINALLY HERE.

Tomorrow is the day where group rehearsals will be OVER.

Tomorrow is the day where I don't have to carry wooden chairs here and there like an idiot anymore.

Tomorrow is the day where I will face the ANG MOH.

Tomorrow is the day where I will FREAK OUT

OMG HELP HELP

Good luck 4.5F and RAMMPS! :D

2010-07-03T21:08:00.002+08:00

TSD A Levels practical is just about 6 days away and I'm freaking out already. I don't feel prepared at all and am pretty much intimidated by the other JCs, sigh! :( I guess even if I'm given 1 more month, I would still be saying the same thing. We're becoming so dependant on deadlines, aren't we?
Once tsd practical is over, SA results are gonna be out. I'm gonna meet all my S & U friends :) Then that is when I will whine and die. No. The sad thing is, you CAN'T die. You have to survive. Even if you desperately want to die, you are only allowed to die next year when you get your results. How encouraging.

(As you can see) I am feeling very awful now because of what I predict and it is stupid but I cannot help it. I am not pessimistic. I am simply facing reality and acknowledging that I am gonna be pretty screwed up for the next two weeks to come.

I need motivation and courage :( I need MC. yes MCsssss of course!!! I heard the school called some polyclinics to encourage doctors to avoid giving tpjcians MCs though. They're leaving us with no alternatives :) thank you school I will commit suicide due to stress k (Y)

I'm talking cock already. Oh btw I was really pissed with the Holland VS Brazil match because Holland = Smelly. They can win the soccer-drama award. Didnt deserve to win. Anyhow whack. Knock here and there. Referee bias. etc etc
whatever it's over. my cute ghana team is also out of semi finals :( they're the cutest team ever. I like (Y)

Oh yes. After TSD prac is over, I'm gonna start dancing again, like once every week. I don't know what I am going to do. But I feel that I need to do something. I'm not gonna study every fucking day and let my body rot. So gross I cannot stand flabby body. I feel old I don't like the stone stone feeling you geddit you geddit. Anyway, as I was saying, yes I want to dance. Go for open classes or something. Try to choreograph or something? Idk... just start on something. I've been stuck at the noob level for a relatively long time.

Anyone wanna join me? (honestly I dont think anyone cares about dancing now cos it's all about the books) Anyone anyone? (I'm still quite hopeful :D)

but nvm.. Either way I'll still start. Not waiting for you slowpokes to reply me. And I shall make that my motivation to marry the books.

Wrote my SGC. Is like the -boost-self-confidence-time- y'know. Not bad. Good feeling. Let's write more SGC-s. HAHAHAHA

2010-06-30T23:36:00.002+08:00

THIS PICTURE MADE MY DAY HAHAHA HILARIOUS

2010-06-30T22:18:00.002+08:00

I'll be really glad when tmr ends. But then again I'll be reminded that A lvls isn't over and so I'm still going to be a no-lifer. There'll be group rehearsal on Friday and full run for IS and group on YOUTH DAY. God, I really can't wait to get this done and over with. Rui Shan, please do it once and well! Youth day is to celebrate youth. How is spending the time rehearsing for exams not wasting my youth? ok maybe in future I'll think of the TSD fun times and suddenly be enlightened that studying is better than working. People will never be contented, will they? Oh wellzzz. I don't know which is better. I won't know the answer in future either. We will never find answers. And that may not be a bad thing, right? I'm rambling on and on idk what I'm saying.

Get to the point.

I'm tired and should stop typing nonsense already.

2010-06-26T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hi :) I haven't blogged since...

anyway good luck for SA, I'm pretty screwed but neh mind I shall remain calm.

TSD A lvl prac after SA week, no break :(

but when prac is over...

LIFE WILL BE MUCH BETTA \m/

looking forward to A lvls, really.

curly hair nice what.

2010-05-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

whoooooooo

life is too short

treasure it

2010-05-24T22:04:00.002+08:00

WARNING: IM FEELING BITCHY

I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE WHO THINK THEY'RE SO DAMN SMART DAMN IT!

ARGH FEEL MY ANGST PEOPLE FEEEEEL IT

Insensitive brainless piece of shit who doesn't even give a damn about how others feel, no respect, no manners, super egoistic, look down on everyone else

seriously these people should be outcast

sometimes I really wonder if they've ever said "sorry" sincerely in their entire lives or not

these heartless bitches are in fact the fools because they've learn nothing else besides "I'm God and you suck"

hum ji

2010-05-16T20:55:00.002+08:00

:) 09a06 first in 4by100m race!

I'm so gonna miss this bunch of fun people :(

Sorry if I sound incoherent lol I don't have time to write story hahahaha :p

Anyway... Life has been good.

$3.80 hair cut at Snip Avenue rocks. But my hair looks untouched 0.0

2010-05-13T23:56:00.001+08:00

Prelims over. Alright. CC next. College day perf on saturday.

My life is freaking speedy.

Wanna challenge?

2010-05-09T22:43:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH after finding pics for group prelims ppt,

I'm freaking out because they're so gruesome! I'm suppose to be finding women soldiers who're raped and saw this:

http://www.google.com.sg/imglanding?q=women%20soldiers%20rape&imgurl=http://www.ez-websites.com/grudge/images/usa-rape-iraqi-women.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.ez-websites.com/grudge/index.php%3Farticle%3Diraqi-rape-girl.htm&usg=__cKyavU5_CJUku3VcQJ_PbfNejvc=&h=254&w=334&sz=10&hl=en&sig2=ftHjpC1jscJknH-rZGc61w&itbs=1&tbnid=-bLgUZt-JbamKM:&tbnh=90&tbnw

Omg I swear this is damn gross I want to vomit I hate men now LOL

EEEEE go google images of "women soldiers raped" and you'll know how I feel now :'(

Traumatized and disturbed ttm :(

2010-05-08T21:44:00.001+08:00

When you are in 4.5F and MDC,
this is what you get.

Loads of blueblacks and cuts :(

what ugly knees I have! :O

2010-05-06T23:26:00.002+08:00

HI GUYS I'M COOL!!!!

TSD PRELIMS NEXT WEEK

OMG WHOOO KILL ME NOW HAHAHAHAHA

GOING NUTS NUTS NUTS

SPORTS DAY IS DURING PRELIM PERIOD

AND COLLEGE DAY PERF AFTER PRELIM

SO COOL

(Y) THUMBS UP PPL

RUISHAN IS A SUPERWOMAN!!! ALRIGHT, WAY TO GO MY SUPERGIRLS!

2010-05-03T00:05:00.002+08:00

Hallelujah!

Just came home from class gathering at Mrs Koh's place. Omg her sons (especially Isaac) damn cute!!!

CUTE RIGHT!!!

We watched 'Kaiji' and I think it's good leh. Not fantastic, but it's very interesting/unique la. Not bad! Watch it, ONCE.

Alright, photos! JASMINE IS EFFICIENT!!! THANKS!!! :D

Sigh..

Hectic schedule is gonna start soon (again).. ):

This is seriously 1000 times worse than O lvls I DETEST THIS.

"Sooner murder an infant in its cradle than nurse un-acted desires"

I totally agree. Lol random. Anyway, melody found the disgrace movie and we watched it just now, quite... 'rushed' in a sense, and erm there were nude scenes. Soraya's nips were huge btw.

Anyway~

Many times I've mentioned FML. But honestly nothing in my life is that bad and I ought to remind myself that everytime I start cursing. Argh. It's so contradictory right. Told ya something is wrong with me. Good job ruishan.

2010-04-30T11:55:00.001+08:00

Have you ever fed a lover
With just your hands
Close your eyes
And trusted, just trusted
Have you ever thrown
A fist full of glitter in the air
Have you ever looked fear in the face
And said I just dont care

Its only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
And the breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way...

Have you ever hated yourself
For staring at the phone
Your whole life waiting on the ring
To prove youre not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently
You had to cry
Have you ever invited a stranger
To come inside

Its only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way...

la la la la la la la la

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee, callin me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night
Lassoed the moon and the stars
And pulled that rope tight
Have you ever held your breath
And asked yourself
Will it ever get better
Than tonight, tonight.......

This song is beautiful.

2010-04-29T23:53:00.001+08:00

I HOPE I DON'T FALL SICK MANZZZZ

RUN BABY RUN, DON'T EVER LOOK BACK

(honestly i hate this song but yah, keep running or you'll trip and fall lol)

I survived today and I'm really proud of myself hahahaha

So attentive and hardworking, wah what a change tanruishan, good job (Y)

2010-04-28T22:17:00.001+08:00

hello guys im dying thank you

see you in heaven

oh no, see you in hell.

Hahahahahahaha

nuts

uts

2010-04-27T22:19:00.002+08:00

I want headphones! :(

2010-04-27T01:14:00.002+08:00

"Its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do."

Well I guess..

it's not up to you to say anyway.

I wonder how I'm gonna wake up in time for school tmr.

5 more hours before I gotta wake up and get ready for a new day. What is this.

2010-04-26T22:07:00.001+08:00

NEED TO SLEEP 0.0

2010-04-25T20:44:00.003+08:00

Everything has a Jo-Ha-Kyu.

I believe my life is still undergoing the 'Jo'...

hmm when will 'Ha' and 'Kyu' come?

Suddenly theater is so beautiful.

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Anyway, it's Sum's birthday today! So happy birthday! :) Hope you love us more ok HAHAHA

Life is so -scheduled- it sucks so badly

but we're lucky we meet incredible people along the way

and suddenly you dont mind life being a bitch.

haha

2010-04-24T22:18:00.001+08:00

Went to National Lib with Mel and Shu today :)

Had our fun, very happy hahaha

Sigh! So much work to do! It's never ending torture.

2010-04-24T00:15:00.000+08:00

Hahahaha!!!

2010-04-22T13:27:00.002+08:00

You can be my sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare

2010-04-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

"The pursuit of happiness is a most ridiculous phrase; if you pursue happiness you'll never find it." - C.P. Snow

2010-04-20T22:06:00.002+08:00

WHOOOO

ok idk whats that for but I really love Night Study (Y) good job TPJC!

it forces me to study lol

ANYWAY.

Today's lessons were quite -lol-

GP was on Rwanda, damn interesting! Saw the documentary which is similar to the hotel rwanda. oh my please watch it, it's good.

Lit was torturous, I was falling asleep and having migraine! So tormenting :(

TSD lesson was cancelled :( but went to find the contractor with my dearest 4.5F!

Bloody hell we had to go all the way to chinatown from tampines to find that mr lee lor!

But we got our chairs ordered, WORTH THE EFFORT! :D

I can't wait to get it, hopefully it's up to expectation manzzzz or else i will emo.

Really tired.

Feeling so dead

lost

meaningless

ugh whatever

*inserts a big sigh*

I miss you so badly... :(

it sucks to put on a strong front when deep down everything is screwed up and overflowing with tears.

2010-04-19T22:19:00.001+08:00

Hello people....

Life sucks...

whoooooo

2010-04-18T23:55:00.001+08:00

Rui Shan has vanished.

2010-04-18T20:37:00.008+08:00

I will never trust you again.

kids are getting emo now.

any emo kids want to join me?

Ruishan, let's disappear right now.

2010-04-17T22:13:00.003+08:00

Went to catch How to train your dragon 3D today! It's AWESOME!!!

Random shot :P

Took the circle line! The Stadium station is super cool! And I think there was some S.H.E thingy going on, was damn crowded 0.0

The Esplanade station! It ain't that near Esplanade leh. But I think there's a shortcut in construction? Not sure hahaha

thanks for the day hun! :D sorry I overslept and made you wait for me for like.. near 3 hours... IM SORRY!!! :p and the amazing thing is you didnt get angry/whine. Thanks baby.

Sigh.

God bless me please.

Oh btw I got A for PW \m/ rocks.

2010-04-15T21:34:00.002+08:00

"If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back."

Hahaha oh well.

2010-04-14T22:44:00.002+08:00

Every night I rush to my bed
With hopes that maybe I'll get a chance to see you
When I close my eyes
I'm going out of my head
Lost in a fairytale
Can you hold my hands and be my guide

Clouds filled with stars cover your skies
And I hope it rains
You're the perfect lullaby
What kinda dream is this?

You could be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you
Sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Somebody pinch me, your love's too good to be true
My guilty pleasure I ain't going no where
Baby long as you're here
I'll be floating on air cause you're my
You can be a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare
Either way I, don't wanna wake up from you

------------

So tiring :'(

I swear it's 100000 times worse than O level process even though it's only 2 years.

PW results on friday. FML. I have a really bad feeling.

I'm emotionally down.

Idk why. but it sucks...

Everything doesnt seem to be going my way.

Life's a bitch.

2010-04-12T17:49:00.003+08:00

:D it's a rainy day :'(

don't

want

stop

....

Don't want :(

anyway. enjoy marcus' choreo! he's so cool right hahaha

2010-04-11T20:36:00.003+08:00

Hi call me faith-fool.

Eugene Koh... ARGH!!! >:D

nvm I think I'm crazy :O How?

So many things to do.

Sick somemore.

Should I go to school tmr?

I HAVE SO MANY THINGS THAT'RE MUCH MORE IMPT TO BE COMPLETED THAN TMR'S LESSON!!!

THINGS LIKE ...

MY STUPID TSD CC (I'M LEFT WITH THE ANNEX ARGH I HATE THAT MOST)

AND REVISING APGP FOR MATHS (ACCORDING TO MATH TUTOR MR KOH)

COMPLETING MATHS POISSON TUTORIAL (BECAUSE AT LEAST I UNDERSTAND, UNLIKE GOING FOR CLASS WITH A VERY CUTE AND BUBBLY TEACHER BUT SADLY YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND A THING SHE SAYS COS SHE'S REALLY IMPATIENT)

DOING MY LIT AND ECONS HOMEWORK (SHITZZZ ALL THE WRITINGGGG)

RESEARCHING FOR GROUP PIECE (OMG IT'S ALREADY APRIL!!)

REHEARSING MY IS PIECES (OMG I THINK I CAN'T RMB MY LINES)

TO THINK I STILL WANTED TO CHOREO SOMETHING FOR MDC JUNIORS LOL FML

AHHH OMG STILL GOT THE VIDEO FOR ASSEMBLY PRESENTATION RE SYDNEY.

WIN LIAO

I think I have enough reasons to skip school right???

PLUS I AM REALLY SICK!!!

ok good job (Y)

2010-04-10T15:58:00.002+08:00

............................

I'm bored

and dying

whoohooooo

eugene koh................. cooked for me today (again) hahaha ^_^

2010-04-09T11:28:00.006+08:00

What's right to you?

A level ain't a joke. I'm trying my best here to get better results to save myself from all that embarrassment and disappointment. So unless you're that goddess/ genius/ mentally and emotionally stable, please don't throw yourself down this cliff.

Well. I'm already on my way down the cliff.

Will you pull me up

or watch me bleed?

2010-04-08T21:27:00.001+08:00

"You behave as if everything I do is part of the story of your life. You are the main character, I am a minor character who doesn’t make an appearance until halfway through. Well, contrary to what you think, people are not divided into major and minor. I am not minor. I have a life of my own, just as important to me as yours is to you, and in my life I am the one who makes the decisions. " - Disgrace

I'm beginning to love this book.

Currently having a sore throat.

Life hasn't been good.

2010-04-07T23:09:00.003+08:00

You know those muzzled dogs chained to lamp posts?

It's really sad how it's kind of a 'common sight' for us humans

but really

does anyone ever understand how they feel?

well

it's like

no matter how much noise you make

from all the loud barking

you're never heard

because everyone is just so used to the 'noise'

they just walk pass you without even realizing what state you're in

when you're actually dying for their attention

and understanding

A simple wish of having just one person would stop by

to sit there to listen to you bark

he doesnt have to feed you

nor free you

but just listen

that's enough.

I suppose

it's really tiring

and depressing...

2010-04-05T00:01:00.003+08:00

Yawns.

I hit my head against the edge of the aircon damn hard the day before and it's still hurting now :( well, it'll be great if that hit will make me smarter. ok I'm dreaming again.

Dreading school tmr. Getting back results I guess.. sian, it's like being forced to face reality, smacking "A LEVELS COMING SOON" into your face.

Life sucks.

Xmarc asked if I ever regretted joining JC.

I did.

but... I didnt.

I hate the system, but that's the faster route isn't it?

Yet I've never regretted knowing the awesome people there.

Dilemma.

Whatever, whether I regret or not, life goes on right? thats the sad part.

But I believe I'm leaning more on the "didnt regret" now. I guess it's the ppl I love in TPJC are keeping me going :) esp Eugene koh hahaha v^^v (melody and boo jealous alr :P)\

Whats reality.

Reality is when.. you want to stop believing in whats happening right now, but it doesn't go away.

Well, to eugene koh... reality is real, plus ity. (thats such an oxymoron thing to say right, but thats what makes him cute lah)

alright, gotta sleep.

or I'm gonna be late for sch tmr. Lol

2010-04-03T00:13:00.001+08:00

Where'd you go

I miss you so

Seems like it's been forever

that you've been gone

Please come back home

2010-03-30T22:33:00.002+08:00

YO PEOPLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

I haven't gotten back any results but I know I passed my lit.

Fernandez came laughing to me today and said "ruishan, less is more ok."

Lol. But she told me I passed *wipes sweat*

My H2s are screwed. Save me.

This is my baby and I :D When we went for the Soka Youth Musical!

Eugene Koh so handsome aye :D I like!

Okay I posted two similar photos (one dark one lighted) because I personally prefer the darker photo but I want you guys to see my heels also! So I posted the brighter one also. LOL loser ttm.

Like my heels not? :P I like!!!

Alright. Have been sleeping for about 4 hours max recently.

eyebags are getting heavier. I can feel it.

So heavy that my eyes are become bigger. It's like pulling my skin down.

Not bad!

Life is cool.

2010-03-27T15:20:00.002+08:00

Hello I Love You :D

Currently at the Esp Lib finding books for group -.- ugh serious WHAT PHYSICAL THEATRE PRACTITIONERS?! SO MANY, SO COMPLICATED D:

okay nvm, that aside lol.

SA is finally over but there's even more to do now.

Hang in there! Life isn't over hahaha v^^v

I bet you must be thinking, "wah first time ruishan so optimistic"

I have BEEN optimistic okay!

Alright, before Eugene starts nagging at me for procrastinating again,

I'm getting back to work!

Gambette ppl :D

2010-03-25T22:46:00.002+08:00

LAST PAPER LAST PAPER LAST PAPER TMR!

A few 'Yay' things today:

1. Last paper tomorrow, can relax for awhile although I will die (again)

2. Carin msged me that we're gonna meet up and have a dance session on thurs! eggcited. I haven't danced for DAMN FKING LONG I HATE THIS FEELING lol ok chill

3. MDC training resume! Can go see my juniors dance hahahaha and have fun (Y)

4. Rainy day! :D

Baby made my day today! :) Sigh this boy ah, very difficult to get angry with you know. Despite being so.. uhm dynamic (to put it in a nicer way), I haven't exploded because of him yet. Yet. And I doubt I can explode because of him in future. He's way too... silly. Hahaha. Love you baby boy!

Good luck to TSD kids tmr for the killer theory paper! :D

And of course to my sweetie pie, jia you for physics! Hope the book you bought works (for once) HAHAHAH!!!

2010-03-24T22:49:00.002+08:00

MATHS OVER!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO (for now at least)

ok the paper sucksssss -.- I'm definitely gonna fail (honestly I'm gonna chiong from term 2 onwards already or my maths really can fail, I shall not procrastinate anymore!!!)

K Idk whats the link to the pic but yeah.. LOL

TSD paper left! Ugh practical was already a killer, so theory wouldn't be able to save my ass much either. lol..... :/

K I need to sleep!

Elmos are the cutest :D

2010-03-23T15:03:00.002+08:00

alright...........................

Two more papers to go! (Maths and TSD)

Maths... ha......

Okay I shall go take a nap first to be energized for math revision!!!

SO EXCITED

LIKE WOW!

Exclamation mark times 1000

Ciao ppl, hope your SA has been pretty good so far :)

2010-03-22T21:33:00.003+08:00

This is the reason why sometimes I prefer to remain silent.

Explaining ]doesn't make things better.

It never did.

And perhaps this is why I feel so alienated.

From all of you.

I never had a listening ear, really.

It's just me v.s the world.

Even if I had one, it wasn't any one of you.

I don't know why

but it felt as if

I've always been lonely all these while.

Sorry I'm not emo and neither am I trying to BE emo,

but I just had to say this.

No comments please.

Yes, blame it on the exam stress.

blame it.

I don't even attempt to be understood or even heard now.

If you realize.

That explains the decrease in noise level lol.

Everything is cold

And silent now.

I can even hear my own pulse.

Can you hear it too?

2010-03-21T20:29:00.002+08:00

Okay SA starts tmr. Ain't gonna freak out, not cos I'm prepared but rather, I'm numb to failing all these crap papers. Ugh! :( Good luck to me. I need Hamid's brains tmr please.

Sleeeeepy..

okay ciao people I'm just gonna sleep now.

2010-03-21T12:54:00.002+08:00

The Exam Stress is eating all of us up.

Cranky cranky cranky.

Sigh don't know why is this happening :(

Let's just blame it on the exam stress.

2010-03-20T00:04:00.003+08:00

Dance camp over *wipes sweat*. FUN! :)

I'm currently very sleepy now but am hanging on because I only have 3 days to prep for SA lol.

Happy and satisfied.

I've done my best, now it's up to you my juniors! Please keep the club going :D

I'm always available if you need help!

Feel like I'm falling sick. I bet baby passed his cough to me!
yes and he's like ignoring me now because I'm not studying so annoying right grrr

Studied in school with Mok today since 9am, pro not? I seem to be getting more and more stupid though. Brain is absorbing so much slower. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.

Dear brain, this is totally not the time to screw up! >:(

Alright.

Back to work :(

p/s: I hope sum gets an external instructor in, ME WANT LEARN DANCE!!!

2010-03-14T14:28:00.002+08:00

Life sucks for now.

SA is coming omfg and I have TSD SA on monday and tues, dance camp on wed and thurs. What a cool march holiday I have. I don't even have time to study. In fact, I think nobody does. Who in the world can do this you tell me.

Geez! :(

Yeah the stress is filling me up

suck it up.

NUS FASS I REALLY WANT YOU.

2010-03-12T21:40:00.002+08:00

Absolute Happiness.

I still find it amusing how we got together.
Baby, for the first time today...

YOUR FART DOESNT STINK!!!
Congratulations, good job eugene koh.

You're watching movie now and I hope you're happy because the show it very funny so laugh more ok :) Love you muchieX.

TSD SA1 is coming and I just started.
Well done!

Ugh get back to work.

p/s: I seriously think Melody should be a designer. Or hair stylist at least. She's cool.

2010-03-06T19:04:00.002+08:00

Exams are coming up and tests are never ending!
Our seniors received their results yesterday and only then it struck me that A levels is really just round the corner. Oh my, the thought of barely passing all my papers now scares the hell outta me :(
Well at least I procrastinate less now! Finally memorized my script and did my research. Ugh keep going ruishan!

I'm off for dinner with my dad! (it's been a long time)

Anyway..
Look at our matching bottles! :)

Hahaha so far everything is good :)

I hope this maintains!

Keep going ruigene, xoxo

2010-02-28T22:29:00.004+08:00

Happy Er Yue baby! ^_^

The glutton face you are seeing now is my one and only Eugene Koh Wei Ping!
Notice his thick eyebrows, yes I know they are SO MAN right.
Alright moving down... his EYES! He has the prettiest eyes a guy can ever have. They sparkle! I love his eyes the most, so pretty. He has long eyelashes lor! *jealous*
Look at his nose. It looks fake right, so straight, like plastic surgery one. Perfect!
His sexy lips, so sexy until always drool whenever he sleeps la.

Just look at the way he smiles! This is the smile that never fails to brighten up my day. Silly looking, a bit of a glutton-feel as well, plus the super contented and happy expression. His eyes can talk. Maybe thats why I always expose him and his retarded thoughts.

Oh look at his eyes. Chio bu. No need wear maxi eye contacts win liao.

Baby is the best boyfriend ever :D

To my darling,
WE ROCK!!!!

Nothing else to say to you already. If want me to type here I think will be damn long, and ppl will just choke and die out of mushiness LOL
Everything I wanna say to you also tell you in the face liao. Don't wanna share with other people hahaha. We're gonna spend a lifetime tgt so I have a whole lifetime to express my love for you.

Eugene koh is mine. Nobody shall dare to take him away!!!

I love you baby!

2010-02-26T23:46:00.010+08:00

RE rocks.
MDC rocks.
TSD too, I think. LOL

It's been a really long time since I published a decent post. TSD is now a bitch in my life that is stopping me from doing so many things I hate it so much but at the same time, I love it. You know, that love-hate relationship?
Anyway, before I continue bullshitting my way through and attempt to create a longer post...

I need to post something about MDC.

I've dedicated all my time and effort into this club omg I swear it's a million times more than that of when I was in amkss band hahaha. Yeah, it's really amazing how passion can really push you to your limits and force you to work your ass off in order to for yourself to have that ability or even qualities to continue having that passion. Y'know, life now isn't all that free and easy now. It's not that passion doesn't work in life but it does have its restrictions. There are so many different forces in life that shape the way you look at how far passion can bring you, and I believe every single one of us have our own reasons why we believe in it or not. So, I don't blame you if you aren't a passion-driven person like me, don't worry. (I've digressed a lot)

MDC made me really demoralized sometimes. I realized so many (ugly) things about myself and I must say that Eugene Koh really taught me quite a lot. This club means so much to me because I have gained so much more than what I thought I would, despite the demanding schedules and the "eating and sleeping - optional" days. It gave me the chance to learn prioritizing again, which was a big problem for me in sec sch. I guess I've managed to handle it better this time, of course with the guidance of my mom and sis (as always) :p

Yeah of course theres all the politics, gossips, conflicts, bitching that went on during the course of this journey.. and it was never resolved (and I don't mind it being unresolved actually, because you know some things just can't be altered HAHAHA), I've made the best of friends and funniest people on earth that I can never expect to exist LOL.

I'm already starting to miss the club because of that TSD bitch in my life. I hate that feeling :( It's like something so close, so part of me, being taken out of me just like that without a reason, without a warning. Yes it's getting emo I'm sorry, but I really find it sour to accept the fact that it's time to step down and watch your juniors take over. I need to be busy again. I want to crack my brains like mad again just to get my members bonded. I want to stay in the studio til really late just to get the choreo done. I am tired, really. But I think it's like what Emen Low said, it's definitely all worth. Don't ask why, I don't know. I just know that this is what I want to do.

MDC has been part of me for about a year, but right now it feels like it's been a lifetime. The company was great, especially the support from sum and young. I don't know where I can actually find 2 teachers as "on" and playful as them. MDC is really blessed to have them. Really freaking blessed.

Never have I regretted joining MDC, and never will I forget my journey there. Although time and circumstances aren't allowing me to keep up with you guys, I know my memory will never fade and it'll always be this strong.
Of course, it's because of MDC, I have found the love of my life, Eugene Koh :)

Sum & young, I'm truly grateful for your support, time and effort you've put in for all of us.

Thank you so much, MDC.

(teary eyes *.* LOL!!!)

Sigh, ok back to work -.- *slaps myself back to reality*

2010-02-23T22:24:00.002+08:00

:D I'm loving you so much more and more, really!

There are so many things that you do for me
it's so difficult to say it here (and it will be mushy so I shall spare the readers)

I really love you!

Road run tomorrow.
Should
I
run?
:(
MDC picnic tmr, k not that bad. lol

(im watching a drama series now and it's like the girl is resisting the kiss she is receiving from a guy then SUDDENLY, she starts enjoying the kiss and stops resisting. How weird. Does that happen in reality? oh yes i think it does)

ANYWAY!

I really need to study,
I've been wasting my time like nobody's business.
like spending all my time on things like THIS after school

k bye

Love Eugene Koh :D

2010-02-21T19:15:00.000+08:00

Best performance ever.

2010-02-21T14:35:00.002+08:00

Cityalive flashmob was fun! :)

Group meeting today was productive (for the first time!!! :P)
Finally the piece seems to be possible and FUN.
Yay I love anything that is fun. LOL who doesnt, lame.
Eh I freakin' woke up at like 7.45am today -.- lll.

Ok I gotta do some work.
Ciao!!!

2010-02-20T01:41:00.003+08:00

Hahahaha mobile uploads from Mok today! :D

I look super alien-ish here :p

Geeky Mok! Super cute with her bangs ^_^

Screwed up my IS mono (again). Have to change script (again). Ugh.. just can't settle down on one.. WHY. why why

anyway... duo was good at least. So compensate lar, in a way.
Hahaha I'm sucha loser.

SIGHHHHHHH

Today's cityalive rehearsal was draggy, but it's fine I guess cos tmr is the show already :)

TSD 8am tmr (technically, it's today). It's 1.47am now. Well done ruishan.

Gotta sleep before I die fo real. I need a god to pray to. Like a god for free thinkers who need some psychological support or sth to boost my confidence or whatever la ok just need that custom made god for me.

Goodnight. Love you baby :)

2010-02-18T23:27:00.002+08:00

Finally finished making my mask. It looks damn ugly stop laughing lol.

Melody tied fish tail for me! pro not! ;)

Skipped school today to finish my mask. (thanks susu for buying plaster cloth for me)
Went jamming with shi yuan's band (viberecoil). Quite fun! :) Tried homecoming, middle, checkyesjuliet and lovedrunk. Hahaha funny people.

IS presentation tmr. I'm damn dead! :(
Wish me good luck please.........

My baby is complaining how I don't have enough time for him (oh he adds that he's not only complaining but WHINING!)
hahahahaha

I Love You Eugene Koh! <3 whooohooooo

stupid eggplant go away.

Cityalive rehearsal tmr 10-11pm. Geeeez~~

2010-02-16T23:56:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CNY!!! :D

The hols are over so quickly :( SIAN!

Ruigene has eaten eggplant up.

2010-02-14T19:00:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY! :D

2010-02-13T14:59:00.003+08:00

Eugene Koh Wei Ping you fatty
Your girlfriend is feeling super bored now
Please finish your work asap and come talk to me!!!
Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrr

2010-02-13T01:45:00.004+08:00

Happy Vday! :) Love is in the air! Thank you boo boo for your chocs and balloon and mokky for your chocs and letter! Love the both of you!!! BFFs for life :P hahaha i sound freakishly ah lianzxXxzzZ whatever I like ok (Y)

Had CityAlive! rehearsal today. Quite happy hahaha :D But xiaomarc didn't come today :(
Spent quite some time with my darling, I'm very happy! Like finally, after all the school hours and shitzzzz finally - some ruigene time! :]

Anyway,
I came home and quickly did my mask.
Ok I didnt do it, HAHAHA my sis and xq did it! I can't do it myself right.. so difficult!
This is the product! I hate it when the tape sticks on my hair -.- so painful...
They say my face very big =_________=

lol okay thanks rq&xq! xoxo
Oh yeah thanks wz for the gumtape and susu for the vaseline! :D

Of course, it's not done yet.. lol
and I need a red wig.
I swear I will look damn stupid -.-
WHY THE HELL WOULD SLAVES HAVE RED HAIR? 0.O

Okay I'm off to sleep. Super tired!
I'm gonna miss my darling because it's CNY weekend, oh man! :S

2010-02-11T23:47:00.002+08:00

:) Sorry another photo of Ruigene hahaha
Thanks for the flower (idk what type of flower is that paiseh) and the balloon baby.

Treasure the ones you love!

Xiaomarc, you're very cute and thats why you're called xiaomarc I think lol.
Stay strong and I know you'll grow to be an awesome dancer! :) jyjy!!!

Tmr is gonna be a long day and I'm thinking of...

hmm

pink form? :D

I NEED TIME TO REHEARSE MY IS PUHLEASE
MY MASK
MY MOVEMENTS
MY A LEVELS

I havent even memorize my duologue! :(
...
Oh why am I in tsd?

because I love it.

Ruishan you're damn stupid I swear.

I think I'm born to love things that don't do me good.
*does not apply to people*

where is my remedy
where is my eugene koh

2010-02-10T23:25:00.003+08:00

Bus 59 freakin' took more than 30 mins to arrive today -.- fml. luckily baby was there to wait with me :)

MDC rocks ttm.

I think this photo is funny hahahaha

Baby looks damn cute with his new hair although many claim that it's retarded.
Well i think it has the simpson feel~~~

hahahaha anyway, today's J1s first dance training went well, I'm happy and satisfied! :)
Seniors just rock la, love my J2s ttm man.

Whoohooo! 2 tests tmr, how eggciting.
Luckily end at 2pm. Or else I'll be as cranky as Nat the ostrich.
And start slothing home like Rachel.

ANYWAY

CNY is coming = TSD IS Presentation is coming

Thank you beri muchiex I hate this workload

To
Slowly
Die

Vday is coming.
hmm...
*starts squeezing out creative juices*

2010-02-09T21:36:00.002+08:00

My sis showed me the vid. IT'S DAMN FUNNY!!!

I miss my baby :(

Skipped school today.
Oh my.
Guilty.

Super not in chionging mode.