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Hate it when I have nothing to do. I feel extremely useless and demoralized and I will start blaming myself for being so lousy.

I can totally visualize myself like this:

Have nothing to do, just blob blob around. Geez I wonder if animals get bored living. Sigh.

I need new opportunities, new people, new environment, new challenge. Everything now is just BORING!!! I'm sure the penguin knows EXACTLY how I feel. As if no matter how tough things get, I just don't feel affected nor challenged.

There's this video audition thing for some Star Search in Korea going on. Then again I don't know what I want. It's FRUSTRATING!!! Should I work something out? Or should I just stop doing all these things? I'm like stuck on the fence and I'm gonna get pricked by the barbed wires to death god dammit.

SOMEBODY SHOW ME THE LIGHT OH GOSH

Ok actually now I'm like this:

WHAT DO I DO WHAT DO I DO

I'M A LOST CHILD

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I think too much